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♥ Monday, April 25, 2011

everyday say he busy busy busy... got time go out with frens no time for me.. go out with frens not tired.. go out with me tired. fuck... whatever.. now will plan my things without him... since he is so so so busy.. go ahead..

go out with the girls just say... i hate liers. whatever lahhs.. i say things to him.. he just stop annoying this kind of things with him.. fine.. i will keep quiet ok. happy?

now we are just like a normal fren.. not even his good fren.. or even a best friend. what i feel now?? i feel sucks... sick for 1 week le. never sick this much before. whatever.. now just let the time pass by.. things fade off. just go ahead.. im sort of tired...

nothing much i can do. things we say, we do is like to formal to be a couple. he even got his holiday and didnt tell me when? what is his plan? whatever.. go ahead lahhs..

im his gf yet i know nothing. how sad that can be. whatever.. he busy.. ok lohh.. busy... gf?? aside 1st.. cos she understanding..

m i understanding??? whatever.... i wish to.. but i just feel more stranger to him now.. a passerby?

why m i keep always feel that he is lying?? have he tot of this question deeply before??? its just becos im not secure when with him.. im sure im going to bust out if i talk this to him.

only 1 way.. break is the only outcome that he will give me. i bust off a few times infront of him.. he still understand the feeling of not safe...

i didnt go out with him n his frens other then the jap boy. he go out with his fren... hah... i donno who he is? i donno where? i donno what the hell he is doing there? if he thinks that 1 day of meeting is enough.. then i think forget it..

people ask me go club dancing. go drink... i reject. why?? cos i got bf. y? cos i don wan to do thing nasty to bf. y? cos i really loves him. y? i donno. just love him..

i told him i love him too much.. he ALWAYS give me a LOL. FUCK! what does ur LOL means?

if i were to do things with my fren or myself?? why would i need a boyfrend to get myself worry for him and make myself stress??? in that case i don need a boyfren.. why would i need it if he doesnt involve in my life and im involve in his life???

in that case. then i don waste my time here waiting for u to be free.. i will just like before.. plan my days months and weeks before... since u don need me to be there.. then i will plan my days and tell them i will be free everyday... don have to just save a wed just to be my bf.. sucks.. im just wasting my time here waiting.. waiting.. waiting....

ever since bali.. just after bali... RIGHT AFTER BALI. don hide things please... please.. i please u... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tell me..

i give up everythings.. i give up... i really have no more strength to hold on. what is the outcome. just let it be.. i give up hopes.. i give up everything... ALL!!!!! i give up! no point fighting for things that doesnt belongs to me..

busy??? go ahead... tired??? go ahead...

when im down. no mood u are not there.. when u down, no mood im not there.. what sort of couples is this??? tired?? everyday tired.. go ahead. give up..

the most upset things i ever had. this is the more upset wan.. he never understand me at all..

To Be or Not to BE. That's a question!

Monday, April 25, 2011