♥ Factory's factorY ♥

♥ Saturday, December 31, 2011

So I tot I won't be coming up here again and post things here. What should I do when I always meet my problems??? Love prob n work prob. Family prob... What should I do?. He been messaging a girl on fb and talks bad about me. I felt so upside and really do no what to do. Since as u say we r not suitable then hey didn't u confirm n chop chop break with me? I really so upset of what you have told the girl.

1st he say he would rather go the the beach and walk in the night, yet I wanna go out with my friends on satursday to play my games.
2nd he say he need MORE personal space. He doesn't want to go out with me. So what should I do?. He NEEDS MORE personal spaces. Need time to relax with his friends. I'm giving him do much so much personal time yet he still tell other GIRLS that I rather go out with my friends for games on satursday.

3rd you r more on coming home and relax and yet I'm more routine. Yes you r damn right I don like to change my routine. Everything, everyday wish to do the same routine and didn't wan to change it. What else u wan? The thing u wan to try to ask, I'm trying pleased you with. I'm really trying my best to do whatever I can for you. Yeahhh maybe we are not suitable. You are much more older than me. Ur 28 n I'm 21. I'm not that mature for anything for you.

I'm trying to be more caring than I never done this much before. I'm trying to keep you happy but you have never tell me what actually you are doing or thinking. You told your family, ur friends but you had never tell me about it, I'm always the last want to know and yet you expect me to be more understanding. I'm not god or the bug in it tummy everyday know what you are actually doing. I wish I know. But yet I'm always the last want to know.

Do you know you are actually a very dangerous person to all the girls??? All are lies... What do you choose to lie than telling the truth. Is it so hard to tell truth?? Or I should say you had never take me as ur REAL gf. Yes I'm thinking too much. But u force me to. What should I do???

And yet now you tell me you love me even more and and feel that we can get marry next year. If I didn't take the thing away, think we won't be lasting this long. Last time when u say that I was very happy but yet I find out some truth about you thru ur friends, I then know what kind of person you are and making me so worry and scare. Think I might wan to keep on dating and not ready yet for any marriage,

Work... Come to work. Fucking Indian man and fucking angmo from south Africa and fucking Chinese man. It's all bull shit. You think I want to complaint So much? You guys didn't even know what actually is going on. And yet to just believe the guy. I'm speaking all out the true and yet he is the wan hiding.. What should I do??? I'm feeling really shit. Wanna change job but doesnt want to spoil my routine. Think maybe it's time for a new change bahhs. I've have got 4 years didn't change my routine, I'm currently enjoying my time now, but maybe it's also time for me to work better,

Maybe I should start changing my job and do something about and I can't just rely on my bf only. As I felt that he is still not ready yet.

HOME!!!! What should I do??? It's all about money... Even I have money I don wan to give. Mom n bro everyday asking for money. I didn't ask money for you people, you guys should be happy. Currently hiding at my bf hse. It's just too sucks to go home. Maybe when I get a better job I will move out and leave on my own..

Nw revolution for 2012 earn more money and move out of the fucking house an change a new job. Time for a change baby.....

I really love my current angmo. And I really hope that he won't disappoint me.wonder what is he really thinking. Below is what I wanna say to you:

Sometimes you can rely on me by telling me ur prob, I can't help but at least be there listening to you. Share your problems with me. Let me understand and stand in ur situation. But u rejected me outside ur door. You build a brick wall among us. You let me in ur hse. But you never let me in ur heart, you don't trust me. You never ever trust me. You built a protection shield on ur self to friends and also to me. What m I to you at that time.? Y only NOW u say u love me even more?? What is going on?? Never been serious about it??? I'm very scare of you and that is also why I'm always walking behind you. Sometime I really feel so tiring. I don even dare to say too much to you. I really dunno what should I do. I'm so freaking tired guessing everyday and even stalk on you. Wat should I do?? Tell me!!!!

Thank for the iPad and everything that you had given me the best. I appreciate it. That's why I love u being sweet. But.... Im know just too scare to make any decisions.

To Be or Not to BE. That's a question!

Saturday, December 31, 2011