tO bE lOvE fOrEvEr

2012-01-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

IM really stress.. and i really wish to spend some time with my bf and even more.. i really really strongly suppect him alot of things but most of it i cant cfm it. and yet something, i just happen to know it. what should i do?

sometimes i really feel so stress.. sometime i just wish to end all the things i have NOW. restart things all NEW. new job new friends and new life. but... seems i cant.

i know how to tell and advice ppl. but yet come to myself.. i did nth. the whole year.. of 2011 seriously i did nothing..

i SPENT my whole year to settle my relationship. although seems nothing on the surface but actually it does matter alot of things. i really dont know what i want. i very stress now!!!!! BLOG! pls help me.

i really love him.. but i really dont know what is he thinking??? i really need help!!! but.. as according to some1 that told me abt him before, he had change for a little bit.. but.. the thing that need to be change.. still...... anyway.. i choose to love him... i will do everything for him.

but i hope he wont disapooint me. i hope. i just hope...

2011-12-31T12:21:00.002+08:00

So I tot I won't be coming up here again and post things here. What should I do when I always meet my problems??? Love prob n work prob. Family prob... What should I do?. He been messaging a girl on fb and talks bad about me. I felt so upside and really do no what to do. Since as u say we r not suitable then hey didn't u confirm n chop chop break with me? I really so upset of what you have told the girl.

1st he say he would rather go the the beach and walk in the night, yet I wanna go out with my friends on satursday to play my games.
2nd he say he need MORE personal space. He doesn't want to go out with me. So what should I do?. He NEEDS MORE personal spaces. Need time to relax with his friends. I'm giving him do much so much personal time yet he still tell other GIRLS that I rather go out with my friends for games on satursday.

3rd you r more on coming home and relax and yet I'm more routine. Yes you r damn right I don like to change my routine. Everything, everyday wish to do the same routine and didn't wan to change it. What else u wan? The thing u wan to try to ask, I'm trying pleased you with. I'm really trying my best to do whatever I can for you. Yeahhh maybe we are not suitable. You are much more older than me. Ur 28 n I'm 21. I'm not that mature for anything for you.

I'm trying to be more caring than I never done this much before. I'm trying to keep you happy but you have never tell me what actually you are doing or thinking. You told your family, ur friends but you had never tell me about it, I'm always the last want to know and yet you expect me to be more understanding. I'm not god or the bug in it tummy everyday know what you are actually doing. I wish I know. But yet I'm always the last want to know.

Do you know you are actually a very dangerous person to all the girls??? All are lies... What do you choose to lie than telling the truth. Is it so hard to tell truth?? Or I should say you had never take me as ur REAL gf. Yes I'm thinking too much. But u force me to. What should I do???

And yet now you tell me you love me even more and and feel that we can get marry next year. If I didn't take the thing away, think we won't be lasting this long. Last time when u say that I was very happy but yet I find out some truth about you thru ur friends, I then know what kind of person you are and making me so worry and scare. Think I might wan to keep on dating and not ready yet for any marriage,

Work... Come to work. Fucking Indian man and fucking angmo from south Africa and fucking Chinese man. It's all bull shit. You think I want to complaint So much? You guys didn't even know what actually is going on. And yet to just believe the guy. I'm speaking all out the true and yet he is the wan hiding.. What should I do??? I'm feeling really shit. Wanna change job but doesnt want to spoil my routine. Think maybe it's time for a new change bahhs. I've have got 4 years didn't change my routine, I'm currently enjoying my time now, but maybe it's also time for me to work better,

Maybe I should start changing my job and do something about and I can't just rely on my bf only. As I felt that he is still not ready yet.

HOME!!!! What should I do??? It's all about money... Even I have money I don wan to give. Mom n bro everyday asking for money. I didn't ask money for you people, you guys should be happy. Currently hiding at my bf hse. It's just too sucks to go home. Maybe when I get a better job I will move out and leave on my own..

Nw revolution for 2012 earn more money and move out of the fucking house an change a new job. Time for a change baby.....

I really love my current angmo. And I really hope that he won't disappoint me.wonder what is he really thinking. Below is what I wanna say to you:

Sometimes you can rely on me by telling me ur prob, I can't help but at least be there listening to you. Share your problems with me. Let me understand and stand in ur situation. But u rejected me outside ur door. You build a brick wall among us. You let me in ur hse. But you never let me in ur heart, you don't trust me. You never ever trust me. You built a protection shield on ur self to friends and also to me. What m I to you at that time.? Y only NOW u say u love me even more?? What is going on?? Never been serious about it??? I'm very scare of you and that is also why I'm always walking behind you. Sometime I really feel so tiring. I don even dare to say too much to you. I really dunno what should I do. I'm so freaking tired guessing everyday and even stalk on you. Wat should I do?? Tell me!!!!

Thank for the iPad and everything that you had given me the best. I appreciate it. That's why I love u being sweet. But.... Im know just too scare to make any decisions.

2011-10-11T21:35:00.003+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : sucks

Today I send off 2nd pek gong to bury him. RIP. He is a very nice man. Ended his story at the age of 88.

But this is not I wan to say today. What I wan to say is I really donno why should I do?? I wish to end this relationship. The reason why I wan to end is becos I love him too much. But his heart doesn't seems to be on me. What should I do?!! Sometimes i really wish to tell
Him that I really really miss u. But always when I wan to say that, either he say goodnight or busy. And so we ended our conversation like this. What shall I do to keep his heart with me???

If you happen to see this. If u not happy with me or break with me I will let u go. I'm serious. No point I'm pulling back u n u seems don care. Do you know how sad I m this few days where I need ur comfort and yet no text from u till I texted u??? I m scare u know how scare I m?? I wish to say all this to you but always u answer will be tired. Night. Lol. Busy. What other answer or promise can I get from u????

Tired I'm really tired. I tell u this. I don understand u at all. Totally zero.

2011-09-05T19:55:00.002+08:00

well!! who really i m?? ganna fool by somebody? is he really love me? what shall i do? tell him? start quarrelling.

i really feel so stress.. very very stress.. i tot i have a nice bf. but no. it came out sucks. marry?? ha... not gonna to.. so when is my real love? he had never share things with me. what should i do?

i really wish to give up but i scare he don give a damn. i worry.. i m very worry. so what can i do? what shall i do? what i can do now is give up. i m so not understand him and know abt him. i really feel like crying..

m i really his gf? i feel really stress. he has time to msg ppl on the fb with mani words. but with me. 1 line and that's all.. mani lines? all same word. what should i do?

i feel so breathless.. i cant breath properly. im tired.. im very very tired. so what if i really love him? so what if i force him or not. what shall i do?

i really give in so much so much to do try for the best. but i fail. i really giving up.. not i don trust him or other things. well.. i m feeling so stranger.

im very very stress.. what he really wans??? personal space?? but aint i ur gf????? im feeling breaking down.. i donno how long more my temper can hold on. things happen i only can keep quiet. but well.. im not going to keep quiet anymore. is enough!!!

i give and i take. is enough... he is stress too.. i cant force him much.. worst come to worst i cant promise will there be anything happen. i ve my limits too. thats it!

2011-06-10T22:41:00.002+08:00

Im suoer sad... very very upset.. what have i done wrong??? didnt wan to tell me and even when i ask. what the hell.. i just don feel that im ur gf no more... i really hate it... well if that is the case.. i give up...

no more having me here like nothing.. okokokokokok.. go ahead.. i think u don even fuck care abt it. Fuck!!!! na beii!i take it and accept it. so means i have to learn to forget it and give up everything on.. whats is the meaning of gf??? what the hell is this??? NONONONO is what the hell am i to him?????

i appreciate from the bottom of my heart and happy abt the pass 2 weeks we been to east coast park.. i really damn happy but... what else can i do?????? what what what??? SHIT U!!! im really very upset and disappointed in u..... *sighhh*

2011-05-26T18:53:00.002+08:00

sick and tired.. very tired.never been this tired before.

love root has grown. its growing more and more. i start to think of him and have headache. i just feeling breathless whenever i think of him. should i give up??

i love him too much.. but i donno he loves me anot. Mmmmm. i love him loads........ need him..

2011-04-25T18:31:00.002+08:00

everyday say he busy busy busy... got time go out with frens no time for me.. go out with frens not tired.. go out with me tired. fuck... whatever.. now will plan my things without him... since he is so so so busy.. go ahead..

go out with the girls just say... i hate liers. whatever lahhs.. i say things to him.. he just stop annoying this kind of things with him.. fine.. i will keep quiet ok. happy?

now we are just like a normal fren.. not even his good fren.. or even a best friend. what i feel now?? i feel sucks... sick for 1 week le. never sick this much before. whatever.. now just let the time pass by.. things fade off. just go ahead.. im sort of tired...

nothing much i can do. things we say, we do is like to formal to be a couple. he even got his holiday and didnt tell me when? what is his plan? whatever.. go ahead lahhs..

im his gf yet i know nothing. how sad that can be. whatever.. he busy.. ok lohh.. busy... gf?? aside 1st.. cos she understanding..

m i understanding??? whatever.... i wish to.. but i just feel more stranger to him now.. a passerby?

why m i keep always feel that he is lying?? have he tot of this question deeply before??? its just becos im not secure when with him.. im sure im going to bust out if i talk this to him.

only 1 way.. break is the only outcome that he will give me. i bust off a few times infront of him.. he still understand the feeling of not safe...

i didnt go out with him n his frens other then the jap boy. he go out with his fren... hah... i donno who he is? i donno where? i donno what the hell he is doing there? if he thinks that 1 day of meeting is enough.. then i think forget it..

people ask me go club dancing. go drink... i reject. why?? cos i got bf. y? cos i don wan to do thing nasty to bf. y? cos i really loves him. y? i donno. just love him..

i told him i love him too much.. he ALWAYS give me a LOL. FUCK! what does ur LOL means?

if i were to do things with my fren or myself?? why would i need a boyfrend to get myself worry for him and make myself stress??? in that case i don need a boyfren.. why would i need it if he doesnt involve in my life and im involve in his life???

in that case. then i don waste my time here waiting for u to be free.. i will just like before.. plan my days months and weeks before... since u don need me to be there.. then i will plan my days and tell them i will be free everyday... don have to just save a wed just to be my bf.. sucks.. im just wasting my time here waiting.. waiting.. waiting....

ever since bali.. just after bali... RIGHT AFTER BALI. don hide things please... please.. i please u... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tell me..

i give up everythings.. i give up... i really have no more strength to hold on. what is the outcome. just let it be.. i give up hopes.. i give up everything... ALL!!!!! i give up! no point fighting for things that doesnt belongs to me..

busy??? go ahead... tired??? go ahead...

when im down. no mood u are not there.. when u down, no mood im not there.. what sort of couples is this??? tired?? everyday tired.. go ahead. give up..

the most upset things i ever had. this is the more upset wan.. he never understand me at all..

2011-04-23T11:35:00.003+08:00

how long have i not been on a date with my bf??? after universal studio??? or the football??

most of the time im taking the 1st action to ask him out and talk to him with a topic.. its been so much that i felt tired.. i use to sms him1st. i use to text him things 1st. but... he just a reply or no reply. since he is so busy.. then just let things be.

although people say we do things and don have to hope for a return.. but.. we are couple isnt it? we should think of things everyday to make each other feel happy. he always text busy. going to bed. all this all that.. im sort of tired.!

ok. bed? go ahead. tired? go ahead.

sometime i just felt that i wan to shout at him, u go with ur frens not tired lah?? come with me u tired lahhs? fine.. im tired..

will reply when u text me.. and slowly relationship will fade off... tired... very very tired to be the wan make the move 1st. i can don wan things in return.. but i just wan him to notice me more. thats all.

no more little things from him... sad...

i know what have i done.. this month april.. other then that 1 week. i only meet him for 4 days. out of 17 days. don u feel funny?? and within this 17 days.. there is NO sat included. what is he doing the whole afternoon?? couples always plan dates to go out spend time.. he would rather stay at home slp. rest. out with his fren then having me.

2011-04-16T12:34:00.005+08:00

its useless this year.. i give up.... what is the meaning of bf? what is the meaning of couples.??

he off.. never tell me.. he going out. never tell me.. he sad never tell me.. he happy never tell me. its getting no longer a couple anymore. i know nothing abt him.. totally nothing.. not going to ask him anything or even ask him out.. things changed after bali.. just whatever lahhs.. im just too upset abt you.. learning to give up. thanks.

can you believe that?? couples... the both of us are at home now.. yet he didnt even say wan to meet.. im very disapointed with u.. yet the both of us have nothing to do... fine.. whatever.. i hate you.

i spent time to know you more.. to understand you more.. but u rejected me outside ur door.i don need a bf who is very independant.need some1 who cares for me. u r not the wan that i need. i need some1 that i can really rely on... but u rejected me. im too upset abt this.

its april now.. didnt we wan to go watch the lion king? aint you free tonight? why didnt u ask me out? i will never talk to you abt me anymore. i will never be the wan to make the 1st move anymore. will not be the wan to do the actions like caring, asking u out, how r u. i will show u how u are to me now. if this 1 week u still not going to say anything.. we shall just end here..

2011-04-02T14:55:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel really sad when i start thinking abt u and even missing you. things u do is like by urself. u don get me involve. all by urself. u don share things with me.. u don get me to come with u. help u.. im just out of the picture. there is no point wasting my time here and do nothing.

u say u love me.. really??? but in the picture of ur life. im just a passerby.. i don feel that we are couples anymore.. what's wrong??? he is just no longer a shoulder for me to lean on. i feel more like an outsider... ha..

its time for me to give up after this few days if really cannot.. will try for another few more days.. if cannot.. then its time to let it go. im holding it.. but things just don get me involve. so what if i insist to do so to keep him with me? so what if is loving.. things change... it just change and back to round again..

he said this to me again last night. "tml u don have to go with me anymore" just becos of i didnt say love u goodnight to him. i really wan to give up at times. cos we are in different world. why cant we doing things together? why cant we share things together. its a different story.. y he wants to lie to me??

im really tired.. i always speak out how i feel.. but he don. i say 10 real. he say 5 3 real.. not i don belive him.. things react in a different way.. next time again.. i don ask him y anymore.. will give up....

2011-03-31T19:05:00.002+08:00

all people's gf/bf always get involve in their frens circle. mine??? none. not at all.. what m i to him?? sometimes when people start talking abt bf/gf.. i m always not in the topic.. i have bf. but seems like a stranger to him.

i think is really a big prob where we need to sit down and talk.

to marry an angmo. not easy... really no good... i found the difference between us. either sort it out? or break. thats all...

2011-03-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

what's wrong again???

people's bf/gf will bring their gf/bf out with them with friends. mine?? he never come to mine, i never go to his. he can be real crazy with his friends. but with me he cant. i donno y... he can drink with his friends? i tagging along this sat.. he say he not going to drink. y???

he always say with the boys going out.. but actually he went out with a girl. i saw his text.. text was saying she was at his hse on that day. y??? y izzit so? he said no girls come in to his hse before. he lied. im tired.. real tired.. breaking down soon.

he has got nth to tok to me.. i never stay over tonight.. after movie, come home, he very busy with his laptop. fine... if i stay at his hse?? getting prepare to bed... he is so busy tonight.. what's wrong?? what to do?? he nth to tok to me.. so off i went home lohh... nth to do mahh.. force him to tok to me???

we had a big quarrel.. he say this to me.. he is going to delete my fb. he ask me to watch the movie tonight myself. next time if he do so again.. i wont explaint anything to him anymore. im real real real tired... no point explaining to him and yet he doesnt even listen. u wan to delete my fb.. go ahead.. speechless..

next time ask me go dinner myself or movie myself. ok.. i will do it. u are sick of my posting.. fine... im sick of u wan to leave me alone...

u like the gal dont you. if u like her.. go ahead. i have my probs too.. but u never seems to understand me. u understand her probs more then u know me.. its really sucks.. do u know??? y do i have to tell u everything and yet u don tell me a single thing abt urself.

you been hiding.. always... and today u got a new number.. just right in front of me.. u don even intend to give the number to me.. what m i?????? after next week i don wan to ask u out anymore.. i rather stay no friends and at home then working hard to keep u with me.. its pointless. i got the man with me but he has got no heart. i win the man but not his heart.

he didnt even wan to text me what's wrong. he didnt even call me. just right after the bali trip. things change. thanks for all..

no point im working hard and i gets no reply.. i give up.. i give up on everythings... ALL... and the fucking friends... im so tired......

well.. i might be the next wan suicide. you will never know...

he wan me to quit turf. he wan to delete me on fb... soon... we will become strangers... very very soon.. POINTLESS!

you lied to me. u always lied to me. u only talk big to me.. i hate u so much now.. all lies.... next time u say break.. i wont say or do anything to keep u back.

you telling every1 u feel like go back to aus. go.. go ahead then.. dump me here.. maybe aus will suit u more..

always being the wan left out.. you know how it feels??? u left me out again.. thats it! always being the wan.. family friends and even bf.. always always...

i always come up here and post my feeling.. say here and then forget it.. and didnt wan to bring it over to the next day. i try to forget.. i day if we really quarrel badly.. i just hope u understand this.. i love u so i get so upset. i post this here.. to relief my feelings and sadness.. i don wan to speak this to anyone. and no one i can speak to.. every1 have their own probs too.....

very very very upset.

2011-03-30T15:26:00.002+08:00

what happen??? i can say here.. i will never go out with this bunch of people anymore. becos they not worth my time.. its just a wasting time with them.. F. for more im not going to say much.

another thing is when we quarrel.. im become so sick of it. he still choose not to tell me anything.. still choose to avoid me. y??? never trust u anymore. thats all i can say. by3~~~

2011-03-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

when ur bf call another girl baby also.. u will never be his only baby anymore. so now the word baby form him is no longer that impt in the msg or in life anymore.

he needs the girl (vet) more then me. they are all angmo. they talk easily.. what abt me??? we have nth to talk abt. i cant follow up this topic or catch up his mind. im the outsider in his life.

how m i going to trust him? i wish to... sometimes in life. in relationship i wish to give up.. really wish to.. i got no more strength to hold on it anymore. standing at the edge. where i need to use a full energy to put back and hold on before its going to fall off the cliff.

really loves me?? i think u like the vet also. u worry for her too.. don tell me is just a fren. im sure there is a feeling in there. i donno... my sixth sense tell me.. i worry...

i really feel so tired on holdin this.. yes i love u so much.. but maybe i should let go???? i feel so tired.. mentally tired.. u know how????? i need some energy...

im still always the last wan to know.. wait few months and see how.. if still like this... i really will break down. and will be the time to break up. no point for me guessing everyday everyday everyday and getting myself so tired without his mind having me..

now slowing he don need me anymore.. slwoing slowing... will be the wan left out. today 4th sunday no dinner together... hah... i really wan to cry... wan to cry badly... predicting next wan.. 5th sunday.. and all the sunday.... fine... go ahead. go ahead... im no longer that impt to u anymore. fine.. whatever..

1 day if i say whatever in front of u.. means i really really really have to start to give up on everything... i need u alot.. but if u don love me, i dragged u in.. is pointless... and i will never wan to love again........... its sucks!!!!!!!! what should i do????

sick sicks sick...

i asked him where he going. with who.. what time.. he say i m annoying.. irritating.. fine. i stop.. 1 day when i really stop all this.. means i don love u anymore.. as a gf i feel nth.. i feel im worst then his frens.

what for?? getting a bf know nth abt him. cant catch up his mind.. cant asking anything. fine.. go ahead.. as i say 1 day if i really stop all this.. means i don love u anymore..

as a gf.. i feel really really nothing to him.. i feel more like a burden then anything to him..

2011-03-17T16:04:00.002+08:00

i really wish to turn everything back. back to the usual days. usual topics. usual things. usual love and even more...

i need to work hard on it... something is amiss.. need to do something about it.

i don like the vet.. i hate her.. or i should say its time that i should give up on him. or maybe he likes her.

i tot i have hopes.. but i got none now. i think he prefers the vet then having me around.. if that is so... please tell me. i don wish to be the last wan to know. i feel something is different. what should i do??

bf say nothing to me.. bf has NOTHING TO say to me.

should i give up so that he can do what he wants and will be more happy??? if he can be happy.. thats only thing i can do. if he can feel more happy and relax.. im willing to give up.. this burden of me is too heavy..

i get upset i get heart broken. but if some1 can be happy what i do is worth it. =) cheers

2011-03-15T21:03:00.002+08:00

i dont know what is right what is wrong.. what should i do??? what should i not do??? been up here recently.. love some1 is wrong... over care?? like it or not? what u thinking???

thoughts and questions in mind.. what should i do? i wish to tell him this..

1 day.. u get too tired of me, of singapore, of work. u feel like to go back home or leave me. please do so. i don wish becos of me, u are unhappy here. i feel like im a burden to him.. a heavy burden...

where have the happy days gone??? where are those days??? possible to come back??? im going crazy... im mad!!!!! crazy.... and crazy give me a very very serious headache.. i cant stop crying....

i only thing i don wan to do is.. i don wan birthday.. i hate birthday the most.. u can remember it. u can get me present but... never celebrate it.

i hate birthday.. whenever i get prepare to celebrate it.. having the mood, something bad sure happen and will never go on the plans. always.. it been so mani years.. same thing always happen.... either break off bf? or family? or frens.. is always like this...

this year.. can something different???

2011-03-15T17:33:00.006+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : very bad...

really tired and sick... should i give up??? we became nth to tok. no topics. and left with nth.. he rather do nth than tok to me or anything. is this what he do everyday??? or just that i m around... can i check in his fb and hp???? i need to know alot of things... but i know nth.. what should i do???? its not being myself for so long and i really cant take it...

seems left with nth.. i cant do anything any more.... please... i really need help where somewhere can let me vent my anger and everything out...

im really tired.... its just not as before.. what should i do???? im having a damn hard time now... its not that i don love him.. is just that he seems want to be alone more than having a gf around.

if he wan to be alone and keep things himself then why he needs a gf???? im his gf.. but i do nth.. but i know nth.. i cant help him with anything... share... isnt that what we say before??? he still share nth.... i cant say anything much...

i love him so i must keep quiet.. but i really feel so tired guessing everyday... im really tired and upset.....

i came all the way to his hse... i spend my time here... but seems like he need more personal time than having a gf here...

whatever. now what i can do is.. i m not going to ask him out or anything anymore... if he really need me he will come to me.. and not i always go to him.. im tired... he don ask me out as before.. he don miss me as before.. im seem an extra to him... he don anymore.. ever since bali came back.. im only the way ask him out... tired..... not going to do so anymore...

if he really loves me.. he will ring me.. he don means he don love me as before.. no point asking him out everytime and he seems not happy... NO POINT!!!!!!! really.... very very very very very very very upset............. upset till the max... i just cant stop crying and getting upset... maybe i should be like him.. keep quiet don say anything don miss him don meet up. don do this don do that...i should plan my things without him.. becos of him i cancel so mani things.. now i left with nothing again.. and then... bf throw me aside now.. whatever....

ask me to ask u things if i wan to. i asked but the answer is always nothing... don understand y.............. very upset.

2011-03-12T21:59:00.004+08:00

not very good.. i didnt wan to go out with my frens actually. but just becos of i got bf... people should know that when i got bf, i wish to spend time with him.. but well.. too bad.. bf in march is a bit different. i donno y...

this few weekends was actually waiting for bf to ask me out. very very very very very long never receive any msg from bf asking me out or any other things. i was waiting and waiting and waiting but from morning to night and even days... i didnt receive it. how sad that can be..

i wanted to ask him out but scare that he is tired.. he not feeling well.. he may not like it or some other things.. i can say is time is up for the honeymoon period.

5months we been together.. 5months.. we get to see each other almost everyday.. but now in march and till now 12 march... i only see him for 2 times only.. 2 times... y is it so?? i donn understand y...

i really feel so sad at times.. i cant tell him all this.. sometimes i really wan to let him know how i feel.. but now i cant catch what is in his mind. i feel so so so so upset and even not secure anymore.. i do very upset at times... but.. i cant force him.. i love him too much.. if i force him, he will step back step back and further away from me.. NO NONO NEVER LET THIS HAPPEN! i love him.. should i tell him abt this???

sometimes i wanna ask him what he post on the fb.. but if i asked he will never wan to post again... he say got things then please to let him know asap.. but.. whenever i wish to.. he will never wan to do so as well...

is he really asleep..??? im not sure.. he say so then that is it... me??? i went out the whole day today with zhao wen.. went suntec for it show and then meet the gals in bugis and then to home.. very very tired.. ive been out since 1.00pm and got home at abt 9... was out for the 8 hours...

yeahh was fun with frens but i prefer to be with bf.. but...having a bf working in turf is really very headache and no extra time for dating... i cant say much. this is what i have choosen.. i should know this when i choosen a bf in turf club.. my bf is very hardworking at work.. he work 7 days... morning till night...very tiring at times... i cant say much.. what he need is rest rest rest rest rest.... icant say much at times... i need him thats what i can say.

sometime when he cant sleep in the night, i really hope that he can call me or even text me saying he cant sleep and need some1 to talk and da. da. da...... but i don receive anything.. he told me today he cant sleep the whole afternoon... i hope he can ring me say he need me ask me to be there for him.. chat with him... but i receive nth.. i hope his text saying ask u free??? or maybe can u get me dinner??? i miss u can u come over now? sometimes i do really hope that so..

but... still.. he need rest need some personal time.. among all the dating moments.. ALL the moments i love i like i appreciate and cherish a lot. i really treasure the time when we get together.. im so happy to see him.. but the most lovely time that i get from them was much 9 in the wed night... we had our pillow talk... for abt 1 hr.. and he speak so much and even more then me. i enjoy listening to him talk all the way... i enjoy it so much so much by just listening to him.. how i wish time to stop at that moment..

he tell me his thinking.. what he wants... what happen and so mani things... i have been waiting for this moment and then i got it.. the best thing i ever had... i appreciate it.. i cherish it.. i enjoy it... being so happy abt it.. thanks bf...

i actually didnt wan to lie to him today.. im sorry.. cos i just hope to receive the texts from u.. im very upset.. sorry.. just wont do it again..

u wan me to rely on u.. i was so happy to hear this from u.. but im getting no more secure feel from u... but i m still very happy with u.... thanks baby............................

sometimes i may think too much.. but sometimes.. i need to start thinking abt the bad things is going to happen like what if... what if what if... or maybe he on crush on another gal. angmo or asian is not a matter. then i start thinking... is he don love me that much any more? what if we break... will i be upset??? yes i will very very heart breaking.. then if is that so.. then i still cant say anything anymore. well............ very upset at times... love him too much so i cant stop thinking.. really feel so scare now. fear...................................................
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2011-03-09T12:55:00.006+08:00

thanks angmo bf... Universal studio...

is really nice and sweet and enjoyable day with him.. love spending every single min with him. but......... HAIIS!!roller coaster.. feeling of riding it is.. u wan to die.. thanks baby got the dinosaur bottle for me. =)the streetsis my photography good? hehehes.. searching for this function for long. Mmmmlameo bf...

this is our universal studio dating moments...

out non dating moments... sometimes i just really feel so upset. i just hope that he can tell me everythings that he thinks. but he doesnt wan to say doesnt wan to show.. i really donno what m i to him at times. yes he is always nice to me. but when he didnt wan to tell me anything then what can i say or ask???

he say if i donno anything, ask him. and so when everytime i ask him, he say nothing. so what is the point of asking again and again.. he got mani tots in his mind.. i catch none.. none of it. what is the feeling??? empty. there is good and bad...

sometimes i may just think that mmm...maybe 1 day we will break. take things easy easy easy.. but.. i just cant do it. or i should say i love him too much and he is really a part of me now.

ever since he ask me abt if he go back to australia what will i do, i have to start worry everyday.... and ever since, realli think alot alot alot. really scare the day that we will break.. very very upset.. when get together.. i really got a little headache... i donno what should i do.. i have my probs too.. i have my worries too... i have my fear too... i feel so scare.. i worry... i scare.. what should i do to make it better..

sometimes just a little action from u i can happy the whole day whole week.. but also just a little action from u, i can get very very upset the whole day and whole week. what should i do what should i do????? it's really out of control.. im tired at times... not physical but mentally.. get so worry so so so worry and upset.. things cant force and if it is going in it ways i cant say anything or do anything anymore...

sometimes i really try not to think too much or worry too much.. but my mind just cant get away. what is he really thinking??? what is he really feeling? what he wants??? what he is doing.. everything abt him.. but always the answer i get back is nothing..

i remember we wasnt like this before.. slowly things go another way and became more and more serect.. well.. maybe no.. or i too sentitive. just feel very upset... i don wish to give him too much pressure or stress.. or force him to do something that he don like. don feel like to..

i just wan to be there for u.. just wan to listen to u.. just wan to make all the decision for me... sometimes just u and me. but i know guys.. always say this 'NEVER LET UR GF KNOW TOO MUCH ABT UR WORK, URSELF AND UR THINGS' so guys always react in this way.

putting too much feeling in this relationship which i never been like this before. what i feel?? what i should do??? i need sometimes to really think abt it.. sometimes when i look at him, i really feel like crying...

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to be or not or be. that's a question.

2011-02-26T14:07:00.002+08:00

great job children for the belated cny perform.. although not a good wan.. but its still that they done a very good job.. they gain more confidents in public speaking and show everyone that they can do it.. well done boys and girls... very good wan... =)

things doesnt really go well recently... things have been changing and changing... i hate the girl so much so much.. she is trying to act clever where she know where she stand but she wants to go beyond and over take others... i really feel like shouting at her at times.. but i try to stop myself... its has not been myself lately... i know she wants to take over the class but don be too obvious that u want to take over other people's place. know where u stand and do what u need to do...

things u don have to worry so much that they cant do it.. they can do it.. all u hav to worry abt is what to do on that day.. children are all like this.. they know they should do what.. when time comes, they will do it themselves. its a kind of trust and believe in them of what they do.

sometimes i myself also don believe them. but when come to show their mommy abt their abilities.. they will never fail to do so. some of them they cry is becos they are scare of the lion or maybe the sound. it just take times for them to convince themselves over it.

i really don like the way u r and the things u do.. u trying to act like a supervisor as u are NOT! ordering people to do things. and u are just be there to help... to help.. not to take over other ppl's place. please get this clear.... unless u are being told to.. please!!!!

this feb is angmo bf 4mth anniversary.. well.. this 4 months we had gone thru big wan in dec and medium wan in feb.. we went to BALI for honeymoon.. i know what u concern abt.. but well.. i still enjoy myself.. thanks..

sometimes is not that i don trust u or any other stuff.. is just that the way u do it is making people so worry... u make me love u to the max just within 4 months.. is that too fast??? its really so hard so hard for me to give up on this relationship now if anythings happened.

everyone is saying... he is an angmo.. u don even know his background.. what he told u is there really true????? even when u telling a lie u will also got to tell people what u saying is still a true... so people got to believe ur lies and make ur lies come true. this is human... can i really trust his words????

yes.. in this racing line.. gambling line.. im sure i have seen most of the things in TC and also i have not seen most of the other side of the TC. what ive seen and also what peple say is... all the man in TC.. is all... there will never be some1 had only 1 girl or 1 wife.. sweet talk to girls is the most and greatest power from the boys... girls hardly can get rid of that...

should i believe this???? its really a hard decision for me... i have my probs too. im stress too.. im very very stress... do u know my stress???? i have prob is choosing something when people ask me to choose. sometimes i need u people to choose for me.. if i mind abt the things.. i will tell u... sometimes... just sometimes.... i feel so tired.. but i got to hold on to this cos it really take my feeling so much..

when he came to ask me abt the dinner with his boss. my feeling was i m flying in the sky.. i feel so light and nice... but soon after i fell off to the ground becos if i go this dinner.. everyone in the turf club will know... EVERYONE. and they will start to use a different looking at me. then i got to quit my job le.. somehow... i need to really think what is really going on... and what i wan... future.. u got to set ur self down my dear....

what should i do??... see how see how lahhhs... i found my fav durian pancake is near me now..... hehehehes....

2011-02-24T15:23:00.006+08:00

came back from bali already 1 week le.. bali trip with my love wan i can say is all good.. we fell off the water slides... bump on head and shoulder and knees. so sad for us to have this happen. but well.. everything goes well...love scruba diving... simply love it.. risky but fun.. xoxo

1st time take plane... a little bit scary.. cos i don like my foot cant reach the ground... so... but well i still quite like it.. its fun... =) had the funniest food on the plane.. a maggie mee.. Zzzzz.... LOL.. too hungry.. all along was wait wait wait and wait.... Mmmm... the place where we had our scuba diving.

my honeymoon bali.... <3 <3 <3 thanks baby.. you the best of the best bf... crazy man! <3

2011-02-14T16:03:00.004+08:00

hello everyone! happy new year... this year chinese new year not really a good wan and plus also the people now im working with is so much sucks then before. Mmmm... well... only with 3 people in turf lcub now is nice.. 3 man! they are nice and not nasty.. lucky... Mmm... fun working with them. =)

now whats up next?? chinese new year angbao not bad but actually pretty bad... LOL.. need more angbao please......... short of a few this year. so sad... =((

chinese new year's eve, what happen??? my angmo bf came my hse for chinese new year dinner.. mmmm.... so funny... an angmo come my hse. LOL.....but well really thank so much baby.. hehehehs.

mmm... ah ha... BALI IS COMING!!!! NOW!!!! tml 1135 go airport.. hehehehehehes... my 1st holiday and taking plane.. very funny right.. cos i no money so i didnt go oversea before.. and i now i wan to go i wan to go i wan to goooooo!!!!!! so lovely...

now even this bali trip is angmo bring me there.. so.... Mmmm.. thanks alot. and he is really nice... xoxoxoxoxo. sometime... sometime... somehow... somehow.... thankkks..

but somehow sometimes really donno what is he thinking.. doesnt wan to tell me.. haiis...

here i come bali!!!!!

2011-02-02T09:26:00.001+08:00

why.. i m off today and yet so early wake up. F off my bro's alarm again and again anf again everyday... i will sure throw his phone if tml again like this.. believe me...

well.. bali is just 15 days away from now... cant wait for it to come. and it had really come so soon.. i just love it.. something is going to be interesting. hehes...

i really feel so disapointed... my family.. are not mine family anymore.. they always think i m in the wrong. yes sometime it may be... but this time is really not mine fault. why m i still getting it??? they ONLY see the good side of him.. what about me??? i did really speak nicely to him.. but he don wan to listen... what can i do???? i really had enough..

why m i wan to stay out??? y??? cos i really hate this home... im just nth in here... sometime i just do really care them.. but whenever i start to think of nice to them, i sure will get scolded and even hit by them...

every1 say only girl at home??? u must be the precious... but the question is.. is that really so??? i m human too... i m too....

why did i not wan to help out in the house.. what for i m going to help where ppl don treat me like a human... i m really very upset..

2011-01-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

somehow i feel so tired of everything...

yesterday night abt 11 went to bf hse.. ask me whether wanna go ornot.. i miss him so i went.. not a while he told me he is tired.. and wanna slp and ask me to go home.. alright alright... m i really disturbing u? yeahh maybe... whatever...

i really don like this... although get to see u and happy but i still wish to spend times with you... i didnt go to u, u not tired.. u see me, u tired... fine fine fine... go ahead.. whatever...i just HATE TO HEAR THE WORD IM TIRED!!! keep it to urself... shhhh..

today.. suppose to meet for dinner and he is going to cook.. but well. he say his boss ask him out for dinner.. ok lohhs. what to do.. since he say is his boss le.. what else can u do? nth right.. haiis...

trust him trust him trust him..... stop thinking and love him more. :P
actually i always do love him more everyday. hahahas.. although sometime is a little unhappy but couple do quarrels if not u will never know what each others are thinking.

<3 love u

2011-01-22T16:16:00.005+08:00

things go well and things don go well.. things is lovely and things is not lovely.. sometime his reaction and the words he say and the way he do things is like....

things change so much from the day we got to know each others. u insist to meet up and texting everyday saying can we meet for dinner? just a while and even came all the way here to JP to meet for dinner. even for just a while.. and then soon... texting everyday and even head to ur hse for dinner and u cook.

and we went to sentosa and spend so much money.. about 500.. and even a lost of iphone4. i really feel so upset and guilty. we head there and then a lost of phone and even spend so much money.

and then.. is like.. u no more asking me whether m i free for dinner? or something... is like i m always the wan asking u out and this and that.. now im getting bore. i wont ask anymore..

you wan to go out with ur friends.. go ahead... u wan to do ur things.. go ahead... even how much i care and worry, u doesnt seems to understand..

i care and worry for u.. and wan to know this and that... ended up i know nth... where is the time where we have so much topic to talk and then now.. nth... u can even watch ur own tv and online.. and i do my own things..

but.. good wan.. i stay over at ur hse for 2 weeks.. this whole 2 weeks have 5 days is sick. real sick very sick.. u take care of me.. u come back home for me.. u do things for me.. u try to make me happy.. u got me so mani things i wan.. we had the BBQ at ur hse and is sweet and nice and we get to prepare things together.. this is lovely and forgot to take photo of it. we went to night safari we had the expensive dinner althought is not realli nice. but is realli unforgetful for me. although it rains.. but its still so fun with you along. u gave me a unforgetful christmas.. a mark is there and always there.. a nice and sweet christmas..

we go coldstorage to shop for stuff at home.. we look real couple and buy things for the house and even like a husband and wife and like for our house. this are the little things we do and marked there.

the other little things that i wanna do with you is to clean the house together.. and change a little setting in there. put the photos in the frame and put up in the house.. but this may be too tired for the both of us. u have work EVERYDAY. i have work EVERYDAY except sat and i just wan to spend the sat with u everysat.. but u just need a lot of rest...

always.. my bf whom work in the turf club will always need a sleep and so much rest.. i understand that.. so what to do... Shhh.... i have to do my social life more.. need to hang out more with friends... rather then only stay with bf..bf can give me everything and cannot give me everything..

he marked another thing in my life.. NO i should say he marked alot of things in my life... he marked the christmas.. he mark the..... (which we spent $1200 on it) he maked the night safari. he marked the coldstorage. he marked the Bali trip (not yet go)

Bali trip is coming so fast.. very soon... 15 feb to 20 feb.. i cant wait to go with you.. Opps.. another little things that i wan to do with u is to sit down together to talk about what are we going to do at bali.. a little things and we can talk in romantic way...

there are so mani little things that i wan to do with you.. you marked my life so mani things and i promise to love you and no cheat on you.. but i worry you so much.. although u said... u done so much for me and y wont u wan to spend so much on me and wan to cheat on me? well. it make sense as u realli spend so much for me.. its realli a wrong way for me to think in that way...

u come from australia. and im in singapore.. we don grow up together but we work at the same place.. people say u wanna be with angmo, u have to grow up with him and so u will know his culture and everything... but mine this angmo... Mmmm.....

he so lovely towards me.. and i really need to stop thinking so much so much no good things on him.. hope he can realli understand. =)

Bali.. i cant wait.. actually i wish to go australia more. hehes. LOL

2011-01-03T11:37:00.009+08:00

yoz whatzz up man! well well.. been 2 weeks over at bf's hse.. i miss my bed so much and now back to my hse and feel so weird. is really so good to see ur bf/gf go to work in the morning and come home from work and what he/she will do and everything and daily rountine...

well.. to all couples.. before you wanna marry, please stay over at ur gf/bf hse for a period of time before u say to the marry i do. is really so much impt that i can say...

well.. mine?? i simply love it... something is really nice to me thru out the 2 weeks other then a few times.. LOL.. we can fight over very small things but things heal in just 1 min or maybe 1 night. was really upset when the last night then i have to go home.. not becos of i m going home..

is becos i was home late that night and he ask me to slp on the lounge. fine fine fine.. then don disturb u lahhs.. slp sofa then slp sofa lahhs.. LOL... wadever..... so this is 1 of the things that happen...

dear couples: will this also happen to ur gf/bf??? stay over for a few nights and u will know. thats why a few nights before marriage is impt. hahahahas.. LOL.. but i had so much fun and see so much things..

mount pleasant farewell dinner 30 dec shawn liliwith johnny and chefmount pleasant lady bosswhole of level 3 and 1 may lvl 1 with rani and shawn

in love with people @ stc but too bad all the bar boys wasnt here.. =( after this farewell and head to bugis steamboat with UEK

and countdown with cosplay friends...
and then 1 jan with so mani ppl and every1 is here but too bad... no photos. =(

i have fun this december from 20 dec till now... i have so much and fun and friends and bf around with me.. i feel so lucky.. <3

2011-01-01T08:58:00.003+08:00

happy new year!!!!

2010-12-29T12:44:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : no good

this morning made the breakfast for bf.. Mmm... no good no good. fail fail fail.. taste no good... so sad.. this wan very no good and make me wanna go home now. =(

yesterday went to turf club for some meeting and setting.. is feeling so good going back to work... haiis.. but a bit don feel like going back to work. working together de uncle is getting so much irritating.. very very irritating... hate it!

thanks baby for get me so much things. here are the pictures that he got me for 2010 christmas... the left wan is bf's watch. all of them...

all of them are from the crazy bf.. thanks baby... i love them all... <3

2010-12-28T10:00:00.002+08:00

this bf has really gone too much.. got me so mani presents for christmas.. spent so much money here and there.. this month, december u spend almost 2k on me... do you know that.. or maybe even more... now what we need is more money.. but... im jobless. =( next year then look for it. hahahas..

u got me all the expensive stuff that i never tot of i will have them. i always look and go away becos i may not need it or even have the money to buy.. you got me so mani things that i really donno what to say or do...

what can i do for you??? just tell me... you really worth for me to change myself for you. isreally something worth. =) and... omg... is going to take the photos tonight and upload sooon....

got me so mani so mani so mani things... i know you love me.. and i love you too. really crazy baby... when im alone, you came to my mind with the image of ur crazyness.. you get me things that i wan.. and i cant stop myself from laughing/smilling. you make me so omg! ur sillyness and ur crazyness... you make me so wonderful... wonderful bf ive got... =)

we got to start saving...... really have a hard time on you.. i mus really go find a good job now. =( really so hard on you.. working so hard for the future and yet im doing nth here.. Mmmmmm... be more mature sherii!!!!

<3 you..

2010-12-23T18:07:00.008+08:00

comparing comparing and comparing... previous compare is not true at all.. LOL...what to say leiis.. current bf now is like so good and nice. when im sick, he is there for me.. never dump me aside and say something not nice... he really did his best and do what he can do.

is really very stress for him.. not easy... and he got to do so mani things for me although he had a hard time at work.. is really not easy...

im sick the past 3 days.. and now i feel much better from the headache and giddy.. but well.. now is like having a heavy flow... and cant walk.. feeling sleepy now and wanna sleep but still cant go to bed... =(

i was craving so much food these days and finally i can have them... i see the effort that he made, his worries and really feel so sad and sorry for him... but we gone thru this and our love is getting more close and more lovely...

he is really a crazy man.. got me so many presents.. wrap them up... and not just 1 present. is mani mani mani... what have i got him for is jus a belt.. i don have much money.. so i cant do anything... but what i can do is try to clean up his hse bahhs. LOL...

this few days we had gone thru up and down up and down up and down... what i've seen is really so touch and really appreciate it... really so thankful to him.. tell me.. what shall i do to make him feel more lovely then he is doing all this for me??? Mmmm....

who is willing to do all this for me??? he is buying some girls stuff for me and which boys is willing to do that?? if i can walk, i sure to get it myself. but now the problem is i cant leave my hse. is heavy flow and got to change every half an hour... can u imagine that... very badly.... what shall i do man! but this man is really so good to me..... an angmo doing this for me.. can u imagine that???? i love this man! i love him so much so much.... =) thanks babby....

this december i'm in love in twins.... hehehehes... UEK!
this is Oyvind...ingeborg.. giles...
Guillaume..

i love every1... just every1 but i love my current bf very very much.... he done so much for me... thank you baby....

2010-11-21T15:29:00.003+08:00

SLEEPYYY!!!!! today is sunday and yet i am still up so early!!! what time?? i tell you. is 6. crazy man! some1 ring me up and talk to me. im very very very happy that you told me what is going on. i really feel so happy listening to you telling me what have been or done? very happy. i love it. thanks. but timing is a bit wrong lahhs. wahahhahas.

im here at cck again! most of my stuff are over here. hehehehes.. i love it. bleahhs! feeling so sleepy and then i reach cck at 7am. Zzzz.... no sleepy and then about 10am i went to west coast plaza. becos on sale for nike. a pair of sport shoe caught my eyes. after all the discount.. its $60.. i wanna buy but i got no cash on hands. soo....soo... soo...soo... Mmmm.. a trip there and come back.

and now gonna chong my practicum folder. and finally is finish..!!! hooray... but no printer. got to print at home tml. Mmm..

now yesterday went to ST. praying kind. and quite fun and know all the little girls there. and love it. well. most of the things they say and do is seem so so so childish that i a bit not like it. well.. super childish and i cant say anything as they are about 10-13 years old. is real childish. what to do. wahahahhahas...

joined ST. and hopefully everythings goes well and then turf club next year no more. so i got to see how again. haiis... my boss tot i'm leaving my kindergarten at the end of this year. well.. maybe i will stay for another term and then see how again.. hopefully she allows.Mmm.. ILOVE CHILDREN!

but all my energy being used up by hugh and guillaume. really cannot stand them man! very hard to control them and really i wan to die liaos man!!!! what the..... MMmm

wanna go my nap nap now le. nights

2010-11-18T16:17:00.010+08:00

time for cosplay photos! OMG! i just simply love this.. =)

what's next?? IKEA with STC people.!
LOVELY

been really busy this few days.. should say is this whole oct and nov and further down and more and more.. i feel stress.. i feel really very stress.. work and work and work.. even how hard i m working.. i still earn so little. but what to do.. only like this, i will have more flexible time. and can do what i want to do in the afternoon. just save some money and stop buying those dirty food(tibits) to eat. very stress and really very tired.. what to do what to do??? feeling so sucks...

another stc photos!
stc...my idols! hehehes.

need more sleep.. need more water.. im sick! and...

i love you you love me, we are happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you. wont you say you love me too. Silly baby...

omg! i think most of the stc people about it le.. and is really paisei when seeing them in stc. what the.... is not that i doesnt wan to let people know. is just that.. we are both in the same working enviroment. so thats why is paisei..

really not being myself recently. i do household chores. i cook i clean.. i do this i do that.. is really not being myself at all! what am i suppose to be? or to do? being stay out recently. feel so good with no wan disturb me at home.

i still busy with my practicum folder.. busy busy busy... SAD!

2010-11-09T14:47:00.003+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : tired

been really tired recently.. work and work and very very stress. and even go to attachment. from 8-1 work and 2-7 everyday.. how tired it can be.. but now attachment finish le. so... good. hahahas.. i miss the children there now. Mmmm..
Min hui.. she know to call me jie jie

2010-11-08T14:09:00.010+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : time to blog.!!!

yoz whatzz up man! The man who does my breakfast again. Opps i over slept on sunday.. iyayayaya.... LOL.. we went to Marina South Pier for the Cheng ho cruise dinner.. was pretty good. not so bad. most of it are chinese food. Mmm.. good view good accompany and good food. yum yum...

sunday is Cosplay day! 1st time take off in turf club. Mmm... very worry about the work there. LOL.. and then... go Cosplay... here comes the photos!!!! Lovely fun @ cosplay at suntec city. =)

very tired today.. will continue tml. :P

2010-10-19T17:10:00.002+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : something wrong.

tml is going out with my australia friend. LOL.. maybe he is a trainer bahhs. i donno. somehow a little feel scare and somehow i don feel like going anymore. Mmmm. ahhhh feel scare scare now. plus is going out with an ang mo leiis.. xia si ren man!

this angmo is cute but horr.. too bad. i don like ppl who go club club de.. LOL. what's my ideal life style?? with children around. and my husband and really nice family bonding should have. my ideal life style is not all people can accept it. LOL. but well.. is really nice to have this life style. NOT EASY!.

yes indeed i need a shoulder to lean on.. but someone can really i trust. and also someone who is MAN enough. wahahahahas.. not MAN enough wan i don want. LOL.MUST be MAN enough and a nice shoulder for me to lean on. :P

walao! everyday got 16 children. but we divide into 3 grps according to their age. well well.. according to my group suppose to come abt 3-4 children each day. but yesterday and today we ony has 1 child in the grp and 2 teachers. is like... Mmmm.. and plsu some other crying children, they will come over to my class. they must see us. LOL.. like ferdi, hugh, jack, and some others. they prefer to stay with me. :P

2010-10-12T19:08:00.004+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY :

not as before. whatever lahhs.. i really donno understand.... but well.. he is that kind of people. living in this world is a wastage.. make me really wan to kill people..

there is a better wan outside. :P

haiis. no money no money no money... wanna borrow but bo bian.. forget it. this month cannot eat too much le. really got a very very bad headache. Is this nice?? i just simply love it.

eyeing this shoe.. someone get for me???

villum.. my dear dear...

feeling so unwell... unhappy.. un..... im stupid.

2010-10-09T21:56:00.006+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY :

i spend so much time and energy and money on you people.. i went out till late night just for you people.. i spend so much so much on taxi.. but why am i doing so? because i love you people.. I love my time spending with you guys. i just simply cant stop.

My way of showing my love to you people is really sickening i know. but sometime i just cant control myself for doing it. i scare. i really feel so scare. then i should say i shouldnt put in so much so much effort or even hopes in it. i spend the time with you people. next day got to work and needs to work all the week. everyday wake up so early and i still spend the time with you people. all for what? and even is so far away from my hse. i already try not to mind it. but still.. I fail to be in there with you.

you starts to avoid me. you starts to push me away. and even not replying my sms or msn. what to do?

sometime i told people. not that i don wan to put in effort or even do it better. is just that when i really put in, no one sees it. no one appreciate it. no one wants to look into it. then for what i try?

if i try and people appreciate it. then I will want to do it even better. from young till now.. from childhood till now..what have i done? i do things all half way. my family like this.. my friends is also like that.. Its just a different way of showing my passion into it. it may be the wrong way.. ITS ALWAYS THE WRONG WAY. but i donno how to express it.

from young.. what my family does? homework never do. this never do that cannot do. what is the punishment?? knee outside the doorway. from young... what have i come thru? sometime i just feeling so sad.. but all this feeling.. who will know??

Im tired.. Im very very very tired... i tried.. but NO ONE SEES it. for what I m going to continue my way and that fellow is moving it away and further away?

ya ya ya whatever.. Im gonna see thru it.. what thing comes and what thing goes.. what am i not working on a Sunday this week??? well.. now i really hope that i can work everyday..

i done so much entertainment..yahh not up to your standard.. then shall just forget it.. i tried... its so pointless.

to someone(guy)

last time if you would never change.. i will change. you did change.. from good to bad and bad to worst.. how am i going to show more of my passion towards you and even wanting to... ... among all.. i still choose you... but you didnt wan to change at all.. and even cheating more gals outside.. whatever... in the end.. Im blind to choose you... something goes wrong in there. you gonna figure out.. or else i am going to curse you.

to someone (another guy) you are not what i see.. you got a hidden face behind you when you were out with me.. i hate that... lucky i didnt go wrong in the 1st place. =)

to someone (another guy)

you are marry and stop saying you like me... yes i know you dotes me alot alot.. but pls.. you got 4 chn already and even 1 is like same age as me.. OH pls.. stop saying you like me or other stuff and do things behind your family. i know you dotes me. but pls.. just stay at what friends are.

to someone (a bunch of people )

stop using that kind of eyes to look at me.. Im not pretty. not using that ti ko pek eye sight to look at me or trying to do something different.. ok! thats it!!!!

i really had so much so much... enough... i'm feeling so miserable now.. someone can help me?????

i feeling so sad so sad so sad.... can you stand in my shoes and think for me?? why wouldnt i wan to go home??? y m i always wanna chill out.. WHY!!!! please... i'm human also...

i love my friends.. i LOVE ALL my friends... i do and i really do... I m willing to do anything for the sake of FRIEND!

last night chill out with them for the 1st supper timing.. 12am till ard 3amplus.. i just simply love it at that time..

BUT STILL i love them the most..
Hugh and jack.. look at hugh.. so sweet.villum goes hu la ba ha.. villads... whenever he comes to sch.. he will never forget to give me big big cuddles.. and his mom loves it alot. =)and ofcos.. not forgeting my ex bf.. baxter Oliver. in love!

iasked him: are you my ex bf he say NO. then i asked him again are you my bf?? he say yeahh.. omg! in <3 they keep me going.. they keep me happy. =)

i love you all my babies..

2010-10-05T18:20:00.003+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY :

seems like he found his love again.. guys.. is NOT trustable. what is in the mind in their tummy we doesnt know and will catch no balls. well.. since you are up to this then i shall say congrates to you and poor that gal bahhs. if you gonna think that its still playing and not marriage time then you shall go again and i believe you will sure never meet your real gal in 1 day. well.. congrates bahhs.

out from no where.. but i just in love with them.. lucky i met them.. i cant stand my life without them.. its just a scandlous around with every1. The group of members....

Colleen
Ganesh
Fazree
Suryadi
Siewlan
Rachel
Crystal

the usual suspect.

well well.. It's October now.. very very quickly de.. my 22 is coming in another 6months. having so much headache with alot of things recently.. it just happened in Jan and now in Oct so fast can get 1 le.. haiis.. this is the most sadness thing to me. =(

yesterday in sch.. i achieve what i wan to achieve everyday.. but only once in a while i can achieve it.. well.. let it be. Mmmm.. what to say leiis.. Mmmm...
crying children are back and ahhh finally open sch.. and i missed all the children.. not only that.. i am now waiting for the next holiday to come..

having this prank with somebody and really that somebody take it so real and now so petty that he doesnt wan to talk to me.. cant you see the date is when? Zzzzz... its so much different now. and omg!!!!! are you a guy? u not a guy... a guy where got so petty de.. you makes me feel so unsecure when going out with you or some other things. you always make me feel that you do things is becos you wan something in return... do you know about that?? Mmmm.. i doubt so...

the scandlous family... i love this bunch of friends. =) Mmm.. i had so mani mani things to share and to say.... but i came here and i forgot... Mmmmm... anyway.. good night..

2010-09-27T13:33:00.022+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

yeahhs~ having my good time now.. omg.. in love in love in love... friday finish werk so tired.. damn super tired and i doze off in cab when going home. not a good day.. happy and sad.. i'm happy to meet some body in turf and chat a little while. and i'm sad becos somebody say me something not nice. Mmmm...

how abt sat? i slept till ard 12 plus then wake up but before that, i really wakeup a while and then back to slp and awake again and slp again.. after that ard 3 head off to hougang mall to shop for a bag and head to fazree's hse for hari raya visiting with Su, Ling, Siew lan and GG. =) having nice chat with them =) cheers... and my boots spoil.. cos walk too much. so sad..
>
then we head to clarke quay TCC for some coffee and so head to raffles and towards bugis for charades games. its GG's 1st time playing and is mine 2nd time playing. =) in love... and so we head home. as next day we are all meeting again. =)

sunday moring go serangoon for measuring body for cosplay costume. and then to turf club. and then to colleen's hse for F1. <3 siew lanGG

adter that watch soccer.. and then i m too tired. so sorry and i doze off... slp... hahahhas.. some photo taking and then home.. fazree taking train so he ran off 1st. and then me siewlan and GG take cab together. and then.. drop siewlan and then drop GG then i head home. =) cheers.. some1 said something that wakes me up in the night. and i got a shock.. hahahas.. only 1 person know what is going on. hahahahas.

but well i like it. ahahahas.. anyway feeling good mood on sat and sun. =))) cheers..anyway i love it and enjoy it alot alot... too bad.. too bad.. but i do enjoy some of the parts. like. the... shhh..

tml is my packing day of my room.. IT'S A MUST. will wan to throw away many stuff. =)
good night and =)

2010-09-21T17:59:00.007+08:00

Alright it's time to upload the millions years of photos. very long never upload le.. =) Baxter... my ex bf. touching the REAL SNAKE ok... the zoo keeper come have a short talk to the chn. Mmmm.. Snake leiis.. chn doesnt feel scare wan lohhs... omg!Santiago.. my Tuesday and thursday bf. MMmm.... so happy. =) very cute. and also still loves me the most. hahas.Mali's special photo.. hahhas.. funny right... omg!Wilf knows my name now and even talks alot.. he loves music and movement with real movements and actions. he loves the most and he loves "what do you see"??
Hugh and Jack is like playing so happily and it's the 1st time i see hugh playing with frens and jack 1st time smile so happily.. really feel that they are really great. =)Damon wants me to take with him but he doesnt know how to smile when a camera is looking at him and now ferdi is jealous. hahahas. =)Villads.. the wan who spread the HFMD to all the chn. MMmm.. whatever. but still i likes him alot. =)HUGO CRY!!!!!Ferdi!Mali's photo time again.. =)caught JAgo molesting Ling. hahahas..

alot to say.. chn are really all my precious.. i cant imagine 1day if i leave the sch.. will i miss the chn like now?? i guess it would be DOUBLE. Due to the outbreak of the HFMD. Sch close for 2 weeks. and i told ferdi that i m going on a holiday for 2 weeks and he cant see me in sch.. and he blust out.. NO NO NO u cant go for holiday.. u come with me.. hahahahas.. ferdi so so so cute. and so i did the same to Mali.. but he shy shy look at me and say.. No u not going for holiday.. really likes them alot. =)

next out with BBlucas again. =)

next is the out with JPS dinner. on the other sat. 11sept.

coming saturday gonna go Fazree's hse for the the hari raya visiting and hopefully have lots photos. and also sunday after turfy go ling hse for F1 show together.. awaiting for the day to come as monday need not to werk.. yahoo!~

too bore at home and NOTHING TO DO!!!! bore bore bore....

2010-09-20T19:35:00.003+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalala

everyone turfy donno why are they start to saying sorry to me. to the trainer, THW, all his staff eat and drink, i cover 1eye. the rest cannot unless your trainer.... hahahahas... lalala... another wan also say sorry to me and say sorry for shouting at me. i was like.. huh??? why everybody in turf saying sorry to me??? ya i know.. u all wan to eat. eat only mahh... i also know. but the problem is eat le bring it back lahh.. then i can also cover 1 eye... eat le put there means i got to serve u. u all then wait long long lohhs.. eat le bring eat i still say thanks to you all leiis..

a thanks to you and also u all can eat. why not??? i just don like stepping in to the 3rd room. and all people in tufy starts to hate me. cos i complaint complaint complaint. you think i wan to??? 1hr $6 you think i wan to care??? is just that i just wan to keep my job safe. then do you guys know i got no money??? i just need a job.. do you all know??? y cant i just give u all eat???? cos previous auntie did that, and now she got fire. then me how?? how?? who is going to be responsible?

school's HFMD is getting serious.. today send 3 chn home. and even plus 1 more is confirmed. omg.. and recently also getting lesser chn comes to school. ok lahhs. can relax a bit. =)

recently also getting so much no mood to werk.. especually at tufy.. the motivation in there is gone.. and maybe going to quit soon.

hao nan ren.. no more.. hahahaas... saw 2.. but all go marry liaos. hahahas. so sad.. awaiting for next wan to come. hehehes. this time round... want something different. =)

watched 爱无限 just only 1st epi and i cry the whole episode. i was like.. huh?? this is the 1st time that i cry the whole episode. omg... i totally understand how tough a person can be when no money and when meeting all the troubles. totally understand. and only 1st episode..

yawn... so tired.. tml shall start to upload all my loves wan photos.. =)and i wan to laugh out out.. becos he scolded her shen jing bing. =)

but.. tome is nth now.. its nth.. bye... good night.

2010-09-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

whats going on?? my laptop have been away for 3 weeks and not yet come back. what shall i do? i miss my lappy man.. shall call up tml. Mmm...

my life.. is so sucks and so good now. good is i met some 1 that really good and nice to hand ard with them. which is my cosplay frens. cool and nice.. nasty and cool. in <3 with them. without them.. what will my weekends be??

in turfy.. a guy which i don like.. he was werking with me. ppl whom in the turf club will know. he is hard working. but i jus don like him. pass him glasses, he come touch my hand. do something, he must stick to me. i don like it. but.. got to thanks alot to him for so so so so so hardworking. and he done so mani things. so sorry to yell at times when u do wrong. but is so much appreciate it. =) but still i don like you.

days and days passes by.. this year alot of things happen. and is so much more then what is happening last year. last year was just dating and entertaining with some one.and so this year... no dating but.. mani social life. entertaining as well and also my own time and i even shopping more often.. i spend more then what i spend last year.. i do make up. i do cosplay. i do smilling to everyone and also everything. i done so much so much this year and found out i miss out alot last year by just wasting my time dating.

the reason y i waste my time dating is becos... i always love my bf so much and also fall so deeply. and i jus want my bf and i don wan other things. i like to spend 24hrs jus with him.. but too bad.. not all guys have the same thinking as me. LOL.. and also.. well.. its just a waste of time. and this year... i said before in my blog. something u done sweetly thru out the process. will be the end of the story of our story. So as i mention before. i must keep my promises.. haiiis.. what todo...

haiis... busy busy and busy.. all while all while..just busy.... the rest shall talk again...

2010-09-05T20:56:00.012+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY :good

cant stop having so much fun with them.. they are cool, they are funny. they are really good and nice... in <3 src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_bh_9O-sPD2w/TIOVNjGywtI/AAAAAAAAL64/6A4dRorsYh4/s400/47737_426862438882_772513882_5054794_4364988_n.jpg" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513414428826190546">
1 thing is bad... i stay west and they stay east... so no 1 sharing cab with me when going home. Mmmm. We went to watch VAMPIRE SUCKS. omg.. Edward and Jacob is so hensum man! uh lala...

And mine recently post is all about.... these people.. always hanging out with them. omg! lovely.. we have people from Singapore, Nepal, Indonesia, China, Shanghai, Malaysia.. WOW!!! cool right... so nice of them. =)

Need to start doing alot of saving... if i don save.. i cant go or do what i wan and where i go.. Mmm.... and my pay so low.. cant save much also. KAO! headache man!\

Last time.. i use to like 8plus or 9 and i NEED TO GO HOME. but now.. i cant just meet my friends at 8pm or 9pm and hang out till around 1 or 2 am.. or even don go home also can. LOL.. but huh.... next day got to go turfy.. so mus go home bath and get change at least. Mmmm...IN LOVE IN LOVE.... and also.. when the time comes to 12am.. i feel nothing.. and not tired(even how tired i m, i still want to hang out with them) THE NIGHT IS STILL YOUNG BABY!

2010-09-02T13:36:00.013+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY :lala

someone.... just someone... its just being so childish to react this way... how old liaos... walao... 21 le lehhs.. still thinking is primary or sec school mehhs??? just change ur fucking attitude and stop being so petty. don you feel ashame..?

watever.. you spoilt my mood as well.. i just feel that its is so sucks to be with you and all day. i cant believe that there is this kind of people living in this world.. ahhh SHAME! *piew*

I AM BROKE!!!

this month i over spend... i spend more then what i have. haiis... what to do now??? cannot take taxi animore unless is really needed... damn sucks man.... NO MONEY!!!

Its teacher's day yesterday... happy teacher day! lunch buffet @ raffles hotel; Bar & Billards restuarant.

2010-08-30T16:13:00.036+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : well well.. many many photos taken with people i met recently. damn lovely pictures are taken.. i love you guys... 1st is when yen ting cos she leave the sch le.. and so every1 of us will miss her. =) cheersthis is with the CS people. ling, farzee, siew lan. well..suppose to have more people but cos everyone is coming late or no money or OT and so now lesser people on sat's meeting. well.. well... we had fun on just chatting and even card games again.. hahaha.. big D and donkey? haha.. fun fun fun... :P

next is with Isabelle.. hahaha.. omg.. with baby lucas again.. so cute and i play with him and now he found his belly button. hahaha.. so cute... he is having so much fun with me.. bleahhhs

upload until my hand so tired. hahahas.. too many thing to upload and I've just chosen a small part of it niahh.. so sad.. MMm my lappy really spoil liaos.. now send for repair and need to WAIT 3weeks the min. i was like... arghhhhh

and yesterday the comfort cab i called on call. he pick up other customer instead of still looking for the customer.. this is really too sucks. and i really want to complaint. is really too much.. must complain must complaint... arghhhh!!!!!

i m very tired and busy this week. so possibly wont reply all sms if is not impt. cheers... coming up alot of things to do and to prepare and to do busy with...

came a new teacher.. so tall. LOL.. iya... i donno what to say also. and well anyway.. awaiting for my bf to come back to singapore. and 2sept i hope to see him.. i love him so much and miss him so much.. HUGH!!!!! come back pls.. iyoyoyo ur old gf miss u so much. wahahahas... HUGH!!!!!

2010-08-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

good mood recently... eat and eat and eat... tibits tibits and tibits and my face gone worst. gonna put thick make up. haha.. LOL... friday mus put liaos. and also mus wear to sat..donno what.. Mmmm...

morning going picnic with isabelle and then after that go my lesson and then night time is cs ppl's meeting. hahaha.. donno where they wan go and do what.. but i think is ben and jerry again. hahaha...

now and this time mus take mani mani photos... =) i love this bunch of frens. always lots of laughter and games.. lovely. wahahahahaha.. they are all so lovely and nice. <3 <3

today kinddy is so chaotic man. oscar cry, villum cry, villads cry, ari wan carry, hayley wan cuddles, mali wan to play. all of them cry cry cry was like omg.. really like a zoo.. thats sucks...

sleepy.. i love u and good night...

2010-08-22T21:53:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : ???

extempted for some lesson. good man! and have fun with isabelle on sat with kok wah and baby as well.. lovely time spent.

LOVELY TIME SPEND. =)

and then after that meet up with ling and her friendS. the CS(coSplay) ppl. have fun with them again.. we go buy tau huay and then go lasalle sit down and some candy shots and my raping show. hahahaha... wait for fazree to send me the photo. =((( very long hahaha.. same also got home abt 1 plus am. so tired.. and is fucking tired. hahahahaha.. but really a great time with all of them of the day.. more pls more pls....

and i LOVE THEM ALL!!!! <3 <3 <3

2010-08-17T18:50:00.006+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : feeling much better

i m feeling much better nowadays.. and i jus cant accept things the way u tell me.. if you tell me in a nice way, maybe i don feel so sad at that moment and say those words. i m in the wrong as well... becos i wan it also it. i jus want it only from u the last wan actually. i know i m angry i will say those words. guess that really stress you bahh.. and thanks for that..

after a few days of thinking thru... i feel much better now. so means n0w i m ok. i have a great fun with ling and her frens on saturday 14 aug at cityhall mac have some games from 8.30 to abt 2 plus then we head home. had so much laughter... and really a great time with them.. so much fun and really and laugh till ur tummy can go slimmer.. hahaha...

have games with hester, ling, rach, fazree, su, tiff, and the 7 of us have the game of muderer, charades, and taboo... it so much fun i have and i can even improve my english as well.. over here, everyone talks english, and they talk chim eng. i learnt from them, and even from the games. guessing here and there and i do really love it so much. thanks frens.

ling is always the key of every1.. she brings her fren here and there to mix here and there and then... every1 got together.. =) she intro every1 and every1 got to know each other from ling.. its the key of her.. lovely.. and how did she did it?? i guess no wan has this key... its the importance of the key.. is very impt.. she got her key and is so lucky... =) i m so good to have rach and ling as my fren... i learnt good eng from them. hah. =) i m jealous that ling is the key. LOL.. how did she made it? she is very very lucky... she has her luck there always. =)) cheers

remember i sold off my darling, and couldnt get my money?? and now i finally got it... as i make a big lie... a damn big lie..i know i shouldnt do that.. but.. he lie to me... and so got bo bian... need to lie. :P

recently very busy.. don have much time.. alot of assignment to rush.. and hopefully last module don have assignment for me. =)

iyoyo.. my darling HUGH, went for his holiday le.. Mmmm.. miss him miss him
hayley.. my new gal. when the moment i see her. i feel like i know her long ago. a kind of strong feeling of where have i met her before?? she likes tickles and very very sweet. lovely gal. =)

my feeling now so much better. wahahahaha... and THE END of all the shits. =) feeling great now. =)

2010-08-09T18:04:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalala

i rather no holiday today.. becos I GOT NOTHING TO DO!!!!! i mean i m at home and no where to go. Zzzz..

1st i wanna thanks to many ppl.. 2 guys in turfy yesterday.. and also mani ppl lahh.. hahahaha.. and well.. i forgot abt u yesterday, and i didnt wanting to see u yesterday but i speak ill of u. LOL. to my manager... saying how bad u treated me last time and also how nice u treated me last time.. so.. what do u think??? i donno

in turfy is so relax until really got nth to do and make me more lazy at werk. LOL. and well.. i guess is going to meet u up soon and seriously wanna have a nice end for this thing and NO MORE! and i hope to have a romantic and 1 last that thing from u... last wan... and really do... i wan a romantic and a slow wan... 1 last wan and that's it.. =))

Mmmm... yesterday a good and nice lucky day.. nice to mani mani mani ppl.. i really do appreciate it.. and i REALLY DO!. i know what u all want.. is jus u wan the food and drinks from my room isnt it.. haha.. i know what to do.. i kept some drink in my locker as well.. feel free to ask me.. =)) i know what u guys wan from me and y do have me some news. hahaha..

5aug was zack's birthday and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY DEAR.. =) u are offically 21 also. hahahaha. =) cheers

8aug... LEONARD!!!! it was leonard's biirthday and only this year i cant wish him a hapy birthday becos we didnt contact so long for this year.. and i yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo.. supposingly u should have call me up. walaO!!!!! although no present but also a nice wishes for u ar... right... watever... ever since pri 5 until now.. see u will also heart beat goes adnormal.. hahahaha... but.. no more that much feelings towards u after a 7years of crush on you since pri 5. hahaha. =)
JURONG PRIMARY ROXX!

yesterday after werk, meet up ling with her cosplayers for dinner and i tot i will see him but in the end.. didnt... opps... shhhh.... well.. meet upat bugis for dinner and so off we went shopping... shop ard and only get some stuff for sch new term starts... =))

after that farzee joined us shopiing and then we chit chat.. so much things to share and we didnt realize the time is already 1am.. LOL... 1am lehhh.. walao.... and so funny that mom didnt call and say " what time already, y never come home? blarr blarr blarr" and she didnt call at all.. =)

a nice chit with the both of them but too bad.. my age and ur age is so much differnt. abt 4-5 years different. and somehow i cant really catch what u guys means.... i cant share much to u guys as well also.. so..... Mmmmmmmm....

got 1 gal ar.. donno what to say her leiis... wa she damn fuck wan lohh.. and i reallu cant stand her fucking attitude... Mmmm. last time say what sister sister and in the end didnt add me in her so called 'sibling' list.. isnt that funny.... and u didnt even know what kind of frens have u made with... omg!!!!! every1 is speaking ill of u.. do u know that???? its really sucks.. don u think so????? u are sometime jus too fake... shoooo i don like u... and pls don add my fren also can???? u didnt even know them and they donno u. walao! sucks man.. u jus wanna increase the population in ur fb.. u realli not a nice person.. sucks...

i alway feel so jealous... born in same like a human being.. what y m i alway the wan ganna cheat and every1 is lying to me? and also the wan always being left out... its sucks.... i jealous i hate... i feel angry.. i don like... ppl are always so much more luckier then i m... haiis... forget it...

ITs ALL FATE

2010-08-03T19:47:00.002+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : i donno..

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i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare i feel scare

this coming chinese 7th and 8th month will be very xiong to all chinese people.. i feeling scare also.. donno what will happen??? i mus control... control... control...

my sch.. some1 complaint say those report i typed got MANY ERROR... please lohh, is herhand writing not clear and also some of the words is like doesnt make sense and also is u ask me don change the sentence add in or change.. FUCK... u all so clever right?? got degree right? then u all do lohhs.. ask me do for what.. i part timer only mahh...

i was thinking to quit at year end.. but horr.... also think of to quit next year after the term 1.. but i donno what i wan to do.. so... maybe...

well.. what m i thinking the wholeday today????? it was u... jus only u.. m i crazy.. and i think what will happen and what do i need to react and everything??? i dono i dono i dono....

today finally hugh came.. my dear dear boy.. HUgh, why u so cute this morning??? lie on my shoulder and rest.. so lovely.. but u are so HEAVY. hahaha... omg... lovely hugh.... tml kiss ok. hahahahaha... mummy sherii will love u. =)

2010-08-02T15:57:00.009+08:00

blog lo blog lo....

Mmm... 1st to do is upload ariella's candi shots.
ariellaFerdiBenediktHughMali

thats all for the chn bahh.. hahaha.. what is next? esley's bday.. but only 2 photos becos not much ppl also

headache recently.. but not as much as that time.. becos i had done most of my reports and now can relax a little bit. =) and then when after national day and do u know i finally found DL's fb profile?? hahahaha... finally got the real wan and not the fake wan. LOL and last fri was his bday. hehehehe... happy belated birthday.. omg! u are a year older then me sia. LOL...

found 1 of his MOST hensum photo(as below) very cool right.. OMG!!!!!
shuai right.. walao.. only can see cannot touch. Zzz bleahhhxxx

recently came 2 new techers... hmm.. still donno their everything.. will see how and then.. got 1 teacher.. Mmmm all of us like a bit don like.. anyway, i can say is my position now is a bit shakie.... might not stay long... how sia.... sad.. becos that thing suppose i do wan.. always i do wan.. but now she ask the new teacher to do.. sian ar... worry worry le...

anyway.. a bit not feeling well today.. i very very violent to chn today.. the 2 gals... i donno.. i hold them very tight as they wan to run and a feeling coming up asking me whether if i wan to slap them anot.. and u know i wannted to.. but i controlled myself not to do so... really.... get so frustrated... wanna slap them.. and hit them and really don like them.... damn headache. haiis... BUT NO WORRIEssssss I WONT DO THAT TO THEM.

i just get angry very easily... is jus that.. i donno.. very stress now.. haiiis...

find out some thing very very late.. last time u use to buy chocolate and sweets for me. but top up card for me. buy this and that for me.. i really didnt know that ur care is like that.. i didnt know and now i then realise... its too late. LOL... a bit ke xi... but... that time u keep on buy sweet for me, i then know u really care for me and know i feel scare at times and even know sweets can keep me safe..

y m i realize it so late.. i saw this show and is exactly how u treat me.. i didnt know i didnt know.. if i would know earlier.. i will know what to do... well well... Mmmm... really thanks alot.. at least i got an answer now is u realli once love me before and real de... =) not play de.. something makes me feel better now. =) finally tonight can sweet dreams le. =)

all actually i wanna know is have u ever treat me real or not.. becos what we have done, is different from other couples. i didnt know what is going on.. and i know i asked too much. i always tot u never love me real.. so i wan more and more and MORE from u. and now i know le. =) =) at least i know is not fake. =) thats all i wan to know and finally it's been finalizee....... ok.. THE END to all this story... =)) nice ending.. no more bad mood le. =)

finally something really clears out of my mind. =) feeling about 1/5 of my stress is clear and another 1/5 of stress clear with my sch assignment.. and so i m 3/5 stress now.. =)

treat u eat dinner and thats it. ok? okokokokokokokokokokokokokokok... lalala ...

THE END

2010-07-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : hello

alot of money ar.... very long never like that le... very very long.. hahahahaha... turfy... feeling good. hahaha...

opps.. my manager found out that i stalking the hk jockey.. and we can chatting abt this young man.. and she said, "wa.. those international jockeys, u like which wan, which wan will get the cup for the day" i was like. Mmmmm ya uh.. a bit true huh.. hahhaha... she also like DL. hahahaha.. same goes to we both like his sweet sweet smile. =)

i was playing so much with hugh in the class.. and u know what.... i find out that hugh is not hard to teach, and if he really go into the correct enviroment, he will be a nice boy... and hugh's smile is very cute, and he totally cant hide his feeling... not like other chn.. i dono.. hugh actually is very fun... i miss him on the whole friday... can u imagine that??? hahaha... lovely hugh.... cheers....

stalking arie... taking lots of her photos..

the rest upload other day when i free.. good night... =)

2010-07-28T19:08:00.006+08:00

work getting more sucks and i gone crazy.. morning werk, usually not so tired.. but now... with hugh ard, i m going to die soon... please NO HUGH AND NO WILDFRID.... really have a hard time with them.

today in sch... throwing hugh high and low.. realli very tiring.. but hugh is really a fun boy... with his laughter... it brights my day and let off my anger toward him and fall in love in him.. he is indeed a very fun boy..

George and hugh.. georgge wan the bobby car.. hugh doesnt wan to let go..Hugh.... so cool.. this pic not i take de.. is my ex bf, baxter take de... very good shot right...if u feel sleepy and wan to slp?? look at this and it will wake u up. =)they are figuring out how to change diaper for the baby..

what is wrong ferdi? cry cry cry cry cry.... what's wrong with u??? i m just right beside u.. and u still crying for me.. u better don cry tml i tell u.. or i will slap u i tell u... ZZzz(jus kidding)

very stress over reports... die-ing soon... sucks... seems will never finish. haii....

even at my own hse.. i feel unsafe.. i still feel scare when i slp.. with music and lights on... what m i afraid of?? i donnno... i feel scare and even breathless at time.. m i over stress??? i donno.. i don like to be alone.. i don like the feeling.. Mmmm

i didnt know my back view so nice. hahaha.. and also my side view. =)we the cosplayers.. hehehe.. with ling, ginny and lan.. =)

vincent and his family.. =)

my super idol.. robbie fradd.. hahahaha.. rocket man....

good night....

2010-07-26T18:50:00.003+08:00

well.. i really donno... this is for you... i donno why i still wanna talk to you. i still wanna see you.. i still wanna get together with you... i know i am stupid. but all along.. i m feeling good when with you.. only thing i cant stand is only ur fucking attitdue.

but i jus still wanna think of u... but...some time think back... better don.. as i don think as much as last time.. sometime recall back i really feel happy.. and sometime sad.. ahh.. forget it.

but i really regret that i didnt do as what u say... take many photos and do a dairy.. and keep all the nice memories.. i regret that i didnt do it.. Mmmm.. but stil wan to say.... u will be in my mind, not my heart. =) only you makes me really love the most....and unforgetful the most. sad ar..... what the .....

i got funny dream recently... i dreamt of fradd rides rocket man and gets in 3rd place. Zzzzzzz... haha.. fradd says " nvm, let my darling go 1st" i was like huh???? haha... i bump into him when he was going back to jockey's room. Mmmmm.. and recently saw him is like so paisei man! hahahaha.. Mr old man!

happening alot of things.. and i wan go CRAZY!!!!!!

last night after turf meets zhuan wei for dinner... Mmmmm ... chit chat alot. hahaha.. come back bahh ZW... hahaha.. and all my friends in turfy... lvl3 bar A,D and hibicus... come back for party pls. hehehe...

coming sat also got party.. sian ar... sunday got turf... cannot chong too late.. Zzzz

having hugh and wilfrid i the most headache thingy.... wanna cry out loud... Mmmmmmm...

2010-07-24T15:13:00.012+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalala

well.. what to do.. feeling so unsafe.. i love chn.. i hate chn.. i donno what i wan.. i m in the lost world... mani happy and unhappy things happen to me... what i m happy with now is i like go turf club werk. LOL...

i felt happy is i also donno.. what i m unhappy with is WHAT ARE ALL HUMAN ABOUT? every1 is lying to me. all are lies... who can i rely to?? even those that i ever tot of to trust them... what to do?

i sold off my fav fav fav thing during JUNe becos i need cash.. what to do?? i really need cash.. but who knows that fellow didnt pay me and jus run off.. well.. what m i going to do?? lodge a police report.... Mmmm... thats the only thing i can do..

report says the police officer will get back to me in 48 hours. which now is already the 4th day.. and i still didnt receive any call from them. Zzzz.. what the fish man!

seriously i m getting tired in my sch(UEK) again.. i donno why.. i guess is becos of too mani chn and teachers not enough bahh.. everyday got those very naughty de.. like hugh, Ariella, Ben, Tilly, George, Wilfrid.. with these chn.. i really have a hard time.. and also all the teachers...

high is 70% cannot handle him
ariella is 20% cannot handle her
Ben is 60% cannot handle him
Tilly is 50% cannot handle her
george is 20% cannot handle him and
wilfrid is 80% cannot handle him..

imagine... how are the teachers going to handle the chn with all this chn ard.? everyday in class play play play and i tidy up tidy up tidy up.. well 20% is good for me becos i can jian fei on the spot..

so tired everyday... so so so tired.. and somehow i really getting so boring and sucks... i realli need a good rest..
Wilfridmali ferdinandoMaddyLaurenAbigailJoshuaabigail and keileeHughAriella

my schedule is all fixed...
monday morning werk
tueday morining werk
wednesday morning werk
Thursday morning werk, night class
friday morning werk, night turf club
sat wholeday on course
sunday whole day turf club..

can u imagine how my life sucks in this way???? i don even have enough time for myself.. sch assignment only got tues and wed to do it... monday is a mus rest for me..

i think i will go crazy 1 day very soon... recently i really feel so stress that i got my breathing prob again... feel so breathless nowadays.. and i really got no time to blog even.. this will continue to Oct then finish... really have a hard time..

UEK sch starts soon... 10 aug.. and this time is really ALL the chn comes back... really really have a hard time.... can i realli rest???? when comes to oct de holiday, i don wanna werk holiday programe.. everyday werk is like non stop... what can i do???? i realli need some REAL rest and go for some holiday...

i wan go GENTING!!! i wan go thailand... i wan go Hong Kong.. but all is money... and now is realli trying hard to save money.. realli trying so hard... what to do what to do?? DEC maybe go batam.. the burden on my back is real HEAVY!!!!!

THE COSPLAY 10 JULY

police police police.. lalalalalalalalala... watever... some1 cheating my money again and again.. what the hell.. sucks...

shall i post out my blog in fb??? Mmmmm.... lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala....
iya. donno lahh.. very sian man... i m very stress... very very stress... can some 1 buy me at least 10 breakable plates for me to throw on the wall..maybe that would help me to vent out off my stress feeling out... all this stress realli make me breathless at times. last year this period i also very stress.. but not as stress as now. what can i do???

damn headache man!... do u know??? headache's feeling???? sucks......
it's so sucks.. and so if today i still don get my 90 bucks i will really walk in to the police station.. damn fucking man!

2010-07-19T18:16:00.003+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalala

Hensum JOCKEY!!! haha.. from hong kong.. how i wish to know him and his smile really looks GREAT!
some screenshot of him that only can be found online. and his fb is so protective that i cant see a single thing other then knowing his CHINEE BLOG!

well well.. got drunk last night.. really drunk.. had 12 bottles of beers at coffee shop. and had drank to the MAX. and vomitted everything out. its really to the MAX of my limit.. Mmmm.... what to do leii.. and i know.. i cannot drink beers.. allergie to BEER... sad ar.. haiis...

realli drunk u know.. i know everything.NOW!!! what is going on. hahaha... anyway.. really got this funny experience.. hahahaha.. will never get into beer again... =))
add me in fb ok.. Mr DL.. hehehehe.. =)

2010-07-13T13:52:00.008+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalala

so mani days didnt come here for blogging.. it's getting ROT!!!

i miss taking all the Chn's photos. ahahah.. other then keep on uploading the photos of cosplay...
Benedikt and this is ariellaJoshuaJack

here comes the cosplay photos on 10 july.
hi wife, lilivincent

had a very thick make up day.. and i quite like it. haha... i wanna put more thick make up. hehehe... more and more and i more like cosplay liao... it's time to get start to prepare my own cosplay costume.. =))

what's upcoming next?? Mmm.. well well.. stay tune.

2010-07-05T15:47:00.011+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : sucksssss

malay guys cannot be trust... i HATE it.. abt the psp matter. it's totally sucks... are you trying to cheat?? its sucks... don poke me to make a police report abt this matter.. DON TRY IT!!! i don care what the fuck is this already....

arghhhh..... Cosplay event at downtown again.. what to do? a bit boring and a bit fun.. 1st time go is fun la. but 2nd time not as fun as the 1st time. Mmmm... Photos taken..
iya... headband drop le..fixing...
molesting time. hahaha
what can u see from this last pic. it's Ancient Soldiers and Modern Soldiers

well.. this was happen on sunday.. how abt sat? where did i go? i went to my class of cos, and then meet up CD to go dinner and kim, and then to clarke quay to meet my frens. and so... mmmm.. to the pub at shanghai dolly, but only kim is underage and so we change to THE ARENA.

what's going on??? photos shall tells u the story..
actually i drank quite a lot. Mmmm.. a bit here and there. hahha.. got home abt 3am.. so tired sia. hahaha..

haii.. donno what to say.. so suck... bye~

2010-06-30T14:21:00.002+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalala

now werk everyday and even got course. 4 months course should have start in august.. beco i july don even have much time.. but well.. i start early and will end early as well... end of oct... kinda worry for my practicum.. haiis... 18 months and below.. suck! m i tested on their bathing as well? no worries.. i m TRAINED!

i wanna be serious in the class. but they like to play those ice breaker games.. which i really don like. haii.. grp project again.. i don like.. indivual project, i don have 18 months babe. thats sucks.

recently.. alot of things happen again and again... i hate my family.. what is the family for??? they treat me like so suck.. arghhH!

haii.. what i wanna for? what muz i do? kindergarten alot of things happen.. haiyo... so busy and alot to go.. for me.. i also busy.. but i try to min it.

so busy for all my sat and sun.. all the way till august.. becos i very busy!!! really wan to cry sometimes where i can don wan to be so busy.. after my course i gonna stop all the things.. haii..

coming weekend.. hehhe... what's impt?? of cos it's my cosplay day! sunday! really great... shall see u guys on sunday. wanna wear PINK!!!!!! i don care! and need go shopping for some cosplay shoe.. where?? far east?

need to shopping liaos

2010-06-28T21:23:00.001+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : sian ar..

22 june tuesday

went to course at night, with some teachers and my principal.. he fall asleep half way thru.. hahaha... so funny. LOL... the talk, very very sian.. bo bian... i cant take a nap.. bossy sat jus beside me.. Zzzz...

after that desmond come pick me up and get me my fav tao hua.... heheh... and then sent me home.. LOL.. sleep.....

wed... SARAH day....

LOVELY!!! well well... morning jack came to me... and say i loveu.. i was like.. sweet.... very very sweet.. i melted.. hahaha.. JACK!!!!! so lovely.. hahaha.. was playing so crazy... haha. cant help falling in love in JACK!
this is ben.. quite cute and very naughty... he is very fun sometime... hehehebenedikt... cry cry cry.. feel like slapping u.. but lucky this week u been very good.. never cry alot. hahaha.. nice and lovely boy (only when not crying)

thursday 24 june

on course start le.. end at 9.30. so late.. cab home and cost 16 plus. it's suck.. Mmmm.. haii... a lot of things happen... sian... what to do?? anyway, 1of my fren bday coming soon.. really donno what to get for him.. think treat him eat dinner bahhs. thats all i can do. haha.. crazy!

friday turfclub

morning as usual.. no need go werk, cos holiday programe.. slp till auto wake up but too bad awake at 9am.. do nth. Zzz...

at turf club.. rani gave me a indian boy.. he is really sucks. gonna tell rani don give me him again. haiis... turf club sucks this night.

saturday 26 june

turfy again in the morning and most of the setting are done. so nth much i can do. slack there do nth.. LOL... and also rani's man so fucking.. arghhh~ hate to werk with him.. thats sucks.!!

well.. turfy finish, on call cab go down to boat quay for rachel's dinner... and so.. lalalala.. met alot of new frens.. hehehe... but very ex... 30 over dollars.. sucks man.. that day's pay like that gone in cabby...
had dinner at a famous french resturant.. that i went before with the ex. same thing that i order.. and their seafood soup is super nice sia.. wanna order that next time.. hehehe... not much photos taken. that's sad.

after that go bugis hang out till abt 1plus midnight then go home. get changed in turfy and leave my uniform there.. haha.. it's gonna be very dirty coming this fri.. but well.. lucky i have extra set.

very beautifully dressed for that dinner.. boots with dress. haha.. althought thi photo may not look good, but i got another wan looks really good. but not in my cam.. gonna wait my fren send me sia.. =)) cheers.

most of them are cosplayers.. so we will meet again coming weekends. AND!!! i am going to take off for the cosplay event on 11 july. haha.. cosplay impt. hehehe. =))

crazy right??? got werk don wan go.. go cosplay. haiis.. bo bian! fall in love in cosplay.. gonna start making my own cos suit. =))

2010-06-21T14:44:00.011+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalalalala

thurdaynight go meet alvin last day.. he sailing away.. 4 month then come back.. Mmmm.. go JP and go back home to drink. LOL...16 June

that's all for thurday...

next is before that sat's chalet. 12 JUne

next is Mmmm... sentosa on sat 19 june
Hong kian birthday cake

i sold away my bigget precious. the mot expensive thing from u bahh.. i sold it away... hopefully tml can get the money.. really hopefully. cos i feeling so scare now. Mmmm scare cannot get the money... haii..

i feeling so suck now.. a bit regret.... haii....

2010-06-15T14:03:00.009+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalala...

very sick lah!

uploading cosplay photos. =)

so beautifulcolleen n me.. loads of photos manzhong yi that magua extra wan.. never cosplay.our grp photo.thanks for looking after our bags with ur sword. hahahas.myselfthey actually very dao.. they so sucks.

2 more photos shot of me and chris. =)) which wan nicer?? comment pls. =))

so tiring today at home. totally cannot concentrate. haiis. ganna scold by boss mani time.. really cannt stand benedikt sia. so tired.... fever like come back le sia.. Mmmmm

2010-06-14T20:50:00.006+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : tired and sick!

friday! haiis. here comes the why why guy... every thing ask me y y y y y y ... lalala.. thats not the main point. friday night go sing k with zy and boon again. hahas.. till 2am then finish. LOL.. alright.. no more voice after singing the k. becos i have a very bad sore throat.Mmmm..

sat afternoon meet up chris for some make up session and photo session.. Cool! hahahas.. take a look and comment pls!

mani shots taken.. kinda nervous over there.. but quite nice and fun actually. hahahas.. well.. Mmmm.. i brouht 2 dress which is my fav dress and then the jeans and my fav top.. all tube sia. Zzzzz... so sexy. hahahs. ok lahhs.. after doing the whole make up, was realli nice, but the hair ar.. i shouldnt have curl man! look so tai tai and auntie. Zzzz... kinda regret.. but well.. overall i still realli like it alot. =) cheers man!

after the shots. cab home.. sucks man! waste money.. and then quickly bath and SR driving me kim liang and jia jie to chalet... COOL!

some photos taken but not in my camera.. wait they send me bahhs.. go home abt 12am.. so tired man! and was really sick.. wanna go home slp to get prepare for my cosplay on sunday and so....

sunday is here!!! morning wake up head damn heavy sia... so decide don wan go cosplay, go chalet, called zhaowen to come jurong to drive me there. hahas.. go there, who knows they say go movie, haiis don wanna waste money sia.. shag man!
so from there go ps le lohhs.. COSPLAY TIME!!!!

and now is slping time.. Zzz... tml then upload the cosplay photos. =))

2010-06-10T18:15:00.009+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : Mmmm..

very tired... do you know i realli need more time.. it's so pack on my saturday. i jus need more time and everything.. guess it would be my last sat and sun for out the whole day bahhs.. next week onwards, all my weekends burned. MMMmm..

coming sat going studio for some photo shots. and hopefully can go there pretty pretty and come back pretty pretty. hahahas.. take some shots myself becos wondering what should i choose for the 3 sets of clothes. hahas.. Mmmm.. wanna wear jeans de, but i cant find it.. guess my mom had misplace it. shag.. i wanna wear jeans...

MMmm.. so.. i choosen 3 dress. and this 3 are all my fav.. and 1 is very cheapo and another 2 is expensive dress.. hahahas...

let me introduce..

this wan i got it abt 4-5 years ago...age of 16. and i aimed this dress for quite long actually.. at that time, i have the money to buy. so no worries, is jus that i don dare to wear this kind of dress.. tube dress.. so i have been thinking for very long and so i got this dress finally at dobdy ghot station nearby and was from THIS FASHION shop.

i went in, got this dress without thinking, and so off i went to the fitting room and try it. it was realli beautiful that i can say. so i saw the price, i remember was 60 over dollars. with doubt i take and go.. i came to the cashier.. she couldnt find the price tag. so she went to get another dress and then she scan it.

she look at me, and say "oh this dress cost $60 over dollars, are sure you going to buy this dress?" i was like huh??? u look down on me with no money to buy ar? what is this werking attitude? i got money ok!!!! i reply her i" got buy to buy.. y not?"

and so next she asked me again, "by NETS or CASH?" i replied. " CASH!" see i no money ar? i pay cash then u know!, rich ppl brings cash instead of nets. hahahs. LOL... she look at me counted the money damn slowly to double check or something. what the fish.. i buy this dress and that lady attitude is fucking shit lohhs.. totally look down on me sia... what the hell!

it been abt 2-3 years that i have wore this dress.. becos i was so fat and i almost at least try it every year to double check did i grow fat?? previously was cant even zip it up. hahahas.. and now i can again! hooray!

and finalize the story.. i love this dress alot.. even if is expensive. i remember this damn clearly becos, it's realli a worst experience of buying dress in that shop. and was my 1st time buying expensive dress.. a dress somemore.

this wan was brought last year.. i damn last min meet up with zack and go shopping. it was our 1st outing and was regrett that we didnt get a chance to take photo.. i still can remember that we was smilling all the way. cool.. damn paisei. hahas.. but well.. a nice trip with him. hehehs. =) got this dress when zack says " hey it look nice on you" and so i got it with doubt. it cost me 40 over dollars.

after i got this dress i was like.. walao y i buy this dress sia.. don look lik me at all lohhs.. hahahahas.. so funny.. LOL... but well.. i quite like it. cos of zack. =)

this was at bugis street on cost me 10 bucks for this dress.. it was also the 1st time go shopping with collen. hahahas.. our shopping days. and Mmmm.. we brough quite alot of stuff actually.. with the shoe i wore, its abt 30 over dollars. hahasa.. cool right.. and i customise the shoe some more.. hahhas. =) i like this dress becos its really sweet when i wore it. hahas.. nice right? see in real lahs... pictures not very clear and nice. MMmmm...

never tot i can be so sweet before. really! and ... MMmmm... the 1st dress was realli looks nice also. hahas... this coming sat mus take lots of photos man! hahas.. COOL~

Mali.. very nice and cute right.. i take de leiis. hahahas
tara and lucy.. look at lucy.. she is so beautiful...
keilee... so sweet and cute.. from japan.. nice gal.. she loves to kiss me. =)) tessa... lovely gal.. she likes being called bianca(her little sis) but she's not. hahas.. she will smile and say i m tessa Lucy... sweet gal.. she loves tickle... =) i like her alsoSara.. a bit also cry.. so mafan.. she emotional not very good. a bit cry and angry and attitude... my dear dear dear ex bf... hahas.. baxter.. so cute.. cant help kissing him non stop and cuddles.. his birthday is coming sat.. hahas.. have a lovely birthday sweetheart.. =) so cute... you are 2!

Ferdi is realli sweet and naughty nowadays.. sometimes his smile... jus very easily melt my heart, but his naughty it kills my mind, to put him at the time out corner.. HE IS VERY VERY VERY HENSUM. hahahahas. =) cheers...

JACK! he is being nice and sweet and cute recently.. his helper ask me, are u ms sherissa? jack say he wanna come sch and ask me to read him a book. hahas.. very long never scold jack le.. so cute man!.. being reading books to jack recently. he is realli clever and adorable.. lovely and nice... i really cant help falling in u again and again!. =)

JACK JACK! i love you... =) hehes.. cosplay this sat.. oh lalala.... hehehehs.. realli getting nervous man! siao liaos sia... tml night K session.. hhehehe

2010-06-06T21:59:00.006+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : shag

a week never come post post.. Mmmm... shag man.. got cheated again by him.. but well.. lucky i also cheated his $50. this is cheaper then the price le ok.. well.. its ok... lalalalas...

Mmm.. coming up next.. omg the whole week for me is like so shag and tired man... been out in nights, for what? drink coffee.. zzzz... crazy right.. so tired with entertaining with those ppl.. haiis... HAppy birthday SR

in schon friday.. not bad lahh.. still ok lahhs. but this whole week, my pig leg pains again... very tiring putting on the brace on it. well.. its my COole family last day in sch, last archie can be seen. last charlie coole can be seen.. i gonna miss them man.. and was so shock to see MRS COOLE give me a cuddle.. it's my 1st cuddle from the parents.. i was like so nervous man! hahahas.. but well.. i realli will miss them. =) take care and goodluck!

friday werking is like omg.. lucky not so mani ppl.. LUCKY! and SR is not feeling well.. so ok.. somehow rest a bit.. not that i doesnt wan to let u rest lahhs. is jus that don always get sick... get well soon anyway.

SAT.. sr not that i wan to say you, u jus gave me a bomb saying ur mom ask u to rest at home, but u never tell me whether u coming or not coming. i been waiting for ur sms and call and i even keep on calling you till i called JIa jie to ask for ur hse fone, and ur family say u are still sleeping...

can you jus be more responsible by telling ppl whether u coming or not coming. at least pick up the call or sms.. as i said, u always like that last min, will ganna me cannot werk there de. do u know do u know??? oh pls.. i realli cannot tahan man.. rani say maybe friday ask u werk at lvl 3, sorry i cant protect you man, even good and how hardworking you are.. but pls.. i don like bombs and u had gave me 3 bombs in 3 different months..

if johnny got to know this happen again, do you know i will ganna pop.. and who is going to pay for my expenses... are u going to pay me everymonth??? if u are i don mind lohhs.. realli getting so shag werking with you...

i do appreciate alotalot that u realli helps me alot in werking.. damn super appreciate it.. but it doesnt mean u can give me bomb. i know u not feeling well.. but pls... i really hate this man! and even till now is sunday still got no reply or sms for you telling me whether are you werking on friday anot... omg!!!! really cant help by just waiting for it man! NO MORE BOMBS PLSSS!!!!!

sat and sun, is suppose to go cycling in the midnight. but well.. i donno y m i so tired recently.. very shag.. since u say u also not free then jiu not free lohhs... what to do...

today last min went JB with zy... my june haben go in yet.. so went in for a walk, but also very shag.. i ya alot of things happen recently.. no wan can be trusted over in turf club.. super shag and hate it.!

very soon my course is starting le.. 24 june.. haiis.. study and werk.. i will die due to stress... and hor... my upcoming holiday to mersing(msia) is cancel le... cos my boss don let me offf!!!! what the fish... sad ar sad ar... walao! i want to go!!!!!!! boring le boring le..

i m free this coming sat and sun.. ask me out pls.. if not i will rot to death... anyway all my fren cannot be trusted..

my hse? no wan too.. i hate every1 in my hse.. every1 jus dotes the boys in the house.. how abt me?? m i not ur child also??? then y still m i with the sir name NG? for what??? you guys jus don treat me like human, like ur child... jus becos i cant earn much like ur sons? i cant be clever to go poly??? jus becos of these???? or what?? y m i always the wan left out??

my allowance in schooling time, iss half of what they are getting... big bro time, will scare he not enough use.. my time, cut down, don really need that much, young bro, poly very stress and tiring, give him more becos he is a guy he need more cash on him.. what is this?????? not that i wan money.. y jus cant be me also equal like them? cant i have the love jus like them.? y cant i??? always love the boys..

young bro wrong say " u r sister (da jie) must give in more to him..
big bro wrong say " y mus u go poke him, u know his temper and y u do so? u deserve it"

what is this what is this??????????? he also big bro, y cant he give in to me??? y?? y do i still got to give in to every1... you guys always saw my bad points, whenever i really try to be nice, i try really hard to improve u guys didnt see it untill they realli poke me till i cant take it anymore, i shouted back... and then u guys say MY FAULT!!!

he hit me, i kick back, he shouted CB y u kick me? then y u wan to hit me? and mom say stop that to me... y m i the wan??? y always??? do you know how sad it can be when no wan treats you like themselve a family???

fine my fault... all my fault.. should i really move out of this hse??? i guess they will be very happy bahhs... i m the troublefinder..

when young.. i wanted a converse shoe.. i wanted it for very very long.. dad and mom said: WAIT I WIN $D I BUY FOR U. very very soon a few weeks ltr, young bro say " dad i wan that shoe (which was the same wan that i wanted..") in front of me.. he say ok lohhs buy lohhs.. go in lohhs.. then i say i also wan..

you know what he say?? oh u start werking le, (which i was only sec3 and started werking not even a month in KFC with $2.1 per hour) and he say PAY THAT URSELF! and on that day i didnt get the shoe.. i cried all the way home.. i still can remember this very very clearly.. this really hurts me alot alot... what is this?? boys want it u get.. i wan it? get myself... i think till now they already forgot abt this matter bahhs...

this is really hurt.. whenever i recall this matter i jus stil cant stop crying over again and again... y is my parents like this? m i not ur child??? m i NOT? i really had a very hard time over here... is totally NOT fair at all... i hate.... if that is so... its no longer my concern for this family.. u sick? u die ? not my business... becos u guys doesnt even concern me, abt my feelings, and everything..

i werk so hard for the 1st aid, i told them i passed my test and everything with full marks, they answer me " sure copy wan you where got so clever?" do you know i do really werk so hard? you donno.. you guys donno.... how hurt it is/!!!!!!!!!!! HATES.

eyeing a guy in turfy. hehes..

2010-05-30T21:11:00.002+08:00

some fren.. jus some fren.. they are really bitches.. ya ya fren.. i not ur fren lahs? i stranger lahs? i always so good to u all, but end up like that... not that i wanna some return also. is jus nice treat me as fren also lahhs..very hard mehhs?
i donno y i still wanna treat u all so good. haiis.. its jus as nth.. don wanna ask so much le. haiis.. jus very sad..

omg.. coming sat got event.. but haiis... cannot go cos got werk.. omg! shag.. very sad lahhs.. i wan go lahhs. walaO!!!!! but horr.. after werk is going to changi village to cycle over night. hehehehehehes... cant wait man! haha...

very tired arrr!!! can i off for 1 week? jus 1 week for me to stay at home and slack and eat and slp..... i really hope that..

anyway.. a scandal.. lalalalas.. jus scandal. and....well.. scandal! hahahas... wordlesss

2010-05-29T20:01:00.007+08:00

Yesterday at turf.. haiis.. ok lahhs. not bad.. LOL.. werking is boring and realli getting so sian. Mmm.. in turf, some small problem occurs and i donno what feeling should i have. lalalalas... forget it. morning was like wake up damn early jus to meet some1 online and webcam. and then didnt get to webcam becos.... he is HORNY!!! i m toking to a fucking horny guy. hahs. LOL. ( no lahhs, he jus boring and we got no topic to talk)

night time meet my fren go henderson waves there walk walk.. alamak... so nice man the view.. and is raining.. very wet. and no where we can go so... after a short while... we go home instead.. got to play some light sticks but.. Mmm.. raining day.. kinda mood a bit spoil. LOL..

today went out with JQ and ZY... K sessioN!!!!!!!!! omg! lovely.. but too bad alot of songs never sing tio. NOT ENOUGH!!!!!! next time mus book more hours.. hehehes..
JQ and meZhong yi
they very united and strong

DON FEEL LIKE GOING TO TURFY TML!!!!!!!SHAG! today is really not enough.. i want it MORE!!!!

2010-05-27T19:54:00.002+08:00

very sleepy and very tired...

fat fat fat.. is getting fatter... really. very very fat.. eat non stop and i really very hard to stop.. getting fat and lazy..and is really super fat and i really jus cant stop eating... i really having a damn hard time now... i've been eating non stop... JUS NON STOP!!!! really damn hard now... HELP!!!!!

baxtertessaferdibruno
you know... santiago is jus very rely on me.. he jus wan to stay by my side.. sometime, by his look of blur, makes me really love him even more... =)Santiago!!!!

my dear lovely boy...

today my sch go field trip, never go becos really don feel like going. hahas.. such a good day for me at home SLACK! but well.. who knows got to go see doc for check up... xrays scan, take blood test, urine test, and body check... lucky lucky lucky.. my fren say she go abt 50 something over dollars, and i go lucky is 40 something.. different ppl tell me differnt price..

somemore now is month end. so i borrowed $50 from some1, that he would also lent me. thanks so much to him. appreciated. a total of... i owe him $250.. wa.. alot man!... it jus take months for me to return him bahhs. LOL.

i really love chn alot alot alot.. my baxter lahhs, santiago lahhs, jack lahhs. haiyoo.. omg! is really really love them....

2010-05-25T20:22:00.003+08:00

累。。。很累很累很累。。。我真的很累。很辛苦，也很难熬。人生中有苦有乐。很无聊也很累。

very tired... i donno what i busy abt... jus busy.. sick and tired of werking everyday.. and i continuously doing this for nearly 3 years. this 3 years alot of things happen... tml then upload the photos.. i realli wanna go bed le.. is very sleepy now.. and is only 9pm. Zzzzz

2010-05-22T20:00:00.006+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : so so niahh

friday.. i really don feel like going to turfy man! don feel like werking... arghhh~~~~ drag my feet there to werk, and who knows i forgot to bring my vest. so asked uncle and SR not to wear also.. hahas.. pei me.. hehehes.. hahas.. werking is super boring...

after the SIA cupp.. mani ppl is not here, i mean those punters and trainer and even the media.. so is like super slack man!

slacks slacks slacks......

WOW~ hahas.. 1 of my fren say he got NOTHING TO DO. so he wanna come meet me and send me home. hahahahas... k lohhs.. hahahas.. so met him after my werk... rani is somehow a bit good mood hahahas.. suddenly felt rani is so nice yesterday! hahahas. so met my fren and off we went to taman jurong for supper.

so cold in the night.. feeezeeeeezyyyy.... mac for supper and so we head home. reach home abt mmm.. 12 something nearly 1. so tired man!.

after that slp lohhs.. and then sat morning meet him again for breakfast and so we off to jusco in msia. hehehes... i miss the herb soup.. so i fly (travel in fast speed) there for my herb soup. didnt realli get much things but jus to tabao all the nice food there home..

got home so tired maN! so sleepy.. but well.. lucky tml i can slp more. hehehs. so much fun i have now.. and i wan to go sing K K K K K K K K ... 你是我的眼..... my fav and hot song now. hehehehes...

cant stop singing and singing. LOL>.. MADNESS!.... too bad youtube don have his song. Mmm.. i think i should upload.. hehe.. upload another day.. stay tune..

realy cant stand a gal.. she realli a fucker, a hidden fucker which i get closer to her recently and found out abt it.. somehow realli cant stand it but still.... got to face her.. is really sucks!

ROCKET MAN ROCKSS!

at last i got his cap. hehehes.... so tired.. haiis... is going to GENTING with that some1 on july. hehehes.. COOL!!!!! cant wait man! LOL

thanks ming for the horses hahahs. thanks thanks.. owe u so much man! hahahas. thanks thanks............. =))))

2010-05-19T20:22:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lallala

iya. this coming sat cycle is cancel. Zzz cos some1 got to book in in the morning on sunday. haiis.. sian... gonna change to 1st week of june le.. BORE liaos. hahahs.. nvm then.. so next 2 weeks after werk, jiu go cycle bahhh.. Mmmm...

JACK JACK! JACK JACK!

NI hao ma MS sherissa this pix here, jack jack is so lovely and attractive.. LOVE U JACK!

i love u so much... getting cuter and stole my heart away.. hehehes...

feel like wants to throw temper now.. sucks man! becos always ask u 1 thing, u always not free de. then when u LAST MIN ask me, i always go with you. don u feel sucks sometime.. feeling so tired abt it. tell u lah, after those thing, i don wanna talk to u any more lahhs. is like damn sucks wan lohhs.. shouldnt be so engrose in it. FUCK to say it.

well.. i jus feeling so tired recently.. and yesterday that matter, i jus felt that the mark of love in my heart is being removed it completly. and it's no longer as impt as before. was jus thinking oh we stil can be frens ard or something, but well.. i was wrong u are really so heartless.. in this world got u this kind of ppl, i really feel so sad for u.tot u were older and more wiser. but end up, ur thinking is like only for urself..

jus stop saying me lahhs, u didnt realize it. i werking in kindergarten, somehow able to observe what kind of person are u.. it jus cleared my mind as i don think is impt anymore or anything. i jus felt that... 你真的很失败

i realli don mind ur look, u poor, ur ... ur past, ur height, but too bad.. i nice to you and yet jus take it for granted and things are like ppl need to be with u, goes with u, and u never think for others de. haiis... sad for this kind of person is kinda wasting of time.

i wanna waste a bit of time posting here is becos, i wan to leave a mark here of how bad a person can be. how bad the person treats me. i was wrong to love ur sweetest and i was wrong to regret didnt treasure the time of sweet. and the love mark is totally gone now. =))

i got a fren and she got to marry for abt 1 year le. and she is so loving now with her husband.. envy her sia... her man is so much nicer to her, after overall i see those man.. this is the only man that really can believe.. she is really lucky to have him with her.. congrates.. really so lucky..

nice man is so much harder to find now. when will i have 1 leis? sometime guys are really sucks.. even my jack jack.. he is going to be a heartbreaker when he grows up...

2010-05-18T18:55:00.004+08:00

tessa is coming back!!!!!hahas.. cos she been crying so long over at the other international sch... omg! another headache wan.. she very weak.. always gets sick.. but she is very lovely

cant stand jack's cute.. very very cute.!

is very fuckup now.. being accuse by some1, y do i offering the help to him. stupid and sucks... shouldnt have help him. what for? send me the 1st msg already like scolding me.. k lohhs. whatever lohhs.. what more to say? i say i got fren can help, u don wan to, keep on saying my fault.. i ya go ahead lahhs.. damn sucks man! still the same bad temper..

i was still thinking... do u REALLY loves me last time when was togeher? or ITS JUST A GAME. untill now u send me this fucking msg, i knew it. it jus a game, u wasted my time, u cheated on me. what for what for.. make me love u so much and yet... i jus feel so sucks now.

last night de wen(ex bf) called me was chatting so much. hahahs.. he's complainting to me abt his current gf. saying she wan all branded stuffs. she wan to go aircon for meals, MUST BE EXPENSIVE resturant. and he told me he regret that we broke off last time, becos 5 fishball puts in my mouth, everything is settle and easy and cheap. hahas

think back.. yes i very easy get excited.. fishballs for me will do. expensive resturant is NO NEED de. but with couple, 1 month mus at least 1time for nicer wan. hahas. LOL.... he was complainting to me he very xinku with current gf. hahahas...

everyone knows i love fishballs.. hahhaas give me nice fishball and everything is easy to settle. thats all and easy.. i don wan branded stuff... i mean i wan branded stuff too.. but if cant afford then forget it. hahahas.. i mean which gal don like branded stuff... hahahas. LOL..

he keep on saying regretting. hahas.. siao man! who ask u last time don treat me good. so i leave u lohhs. LOL... and then who knows i go turf get another bf. i tot he really very very nice... but who knows.... lalalalalalalal

next is recently. got another wan lahhs. not bf yet lahhs.. but still considering. he is very very nice, doesn a guy going after a gal will be very nice?? MMmmm.. hahahhas... i donno.. but we are click in mani common things. but too click is good or not good?

Mmm.. well.. going to cycle midnight with him this coming sat and sun.. becos NO race.. wahahahas.. cycle midnight at changi village.. LOL... hope it will be fun, as i need to pack my bag as alot of stuffs needs to bring.. tml mus go buy the bottle for shower foam. hahahas.. LOL.

omg.. feels so scare now man! hahas.. go out for a night at outdoor, it's gonna be cold and scary.. i sure bring alot of things de.. like jacket lah, plaster lah, and also we gonna picnic there. hahas.. omg! really cant imagine man!. hahahs.. omg omg omg... ahahas... suddenly is like.. Mmmm.. its my 1st time man!

it a must to take photos.. hehehes.. only only we 2 sia.. a bit.. errrrr....
a card from julius. but the card only got me and his photo. hahas. LOLgonna use this for my display pic in blog. tml then doisnt it lovely?ferdi~!~~~

GOOD NIGHT

2010-05-17T14:09:00.006+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalala

friday!!!!

a little little day at werk in the morning.. only 10 chn. Zzzz too less liaos. nvm... werk went on was like a little chaotic when going home time, becos the other class came over and was in a MESS!

cabby home becos no choice.. meeting SR at 2 at my hse to go werk together instead.. Mmmm.. and then after that will be my big bro. omg! siao wan! FIRST time say wan send to me to werk, and so after he see doctor, he send me to werk with the borrowed car from botak! well.. lucky shu rong to hop in. hahahas.

so off we went with hongda civic. hahahas.. i love this car man! but i like the new series with type R. LOL... nvm.. got transport can le. LOL.. heavy rain, and kinda realli SUPER BUSY!!!! DAMN DAMN BUSY DAY IN TURFY.

wan to die man!, but then after werk. hohoho.. go K session with xh they all again.. friday night k at 11pm. LOL. hahas.. if i go K myself from werk, i don wan go. hahas.. so chengda came over to turfy and wait for me. geee. thanks thanks. hah..

k session with them( chengda, xinhao and guan ting) at chervon till 2.10 am.. heavy rain man and super tired. hahas... got home... SLEEP!!!!!!!!

SATURDAY!!!

awake at 11plus.. cool finally can 1 morning slp till LATE! hahas. and so packed and off i went to chervon and K again... BOOO!! fun and cool man! till 5 and so off i went to .... sam
annabelle, stella, lucy
toby and megan santiago peachferdi!!!!

MEET ZACK!!!! hahas.. went to watch iron man 2 with zack.. but becos that, i saw robbie fradd.. haha, my dear rocket man's jockey. LOL, i didnt know that he wil regonise me. LOL. he stopped me. hahhas.. then chat for a little while becos i gtg as zack is reaching. wahahahahahas... saw him outside paragon. LOL..he looks COOL!

my dear rocket man's IDOL!

wellwell.. movie with zack as he got free tix but donno whether is it true anot. bleahhs.. same.. go out with zack feels so nervous man! hahas.. although is 2nd time but still feels a little scare. bleahhs.. too bad.. i miss the chance of taking photos with zack. hhaii... haii... haii.. very sad..!

after meet up chengda again. diaO! he came all the way down to town area jus to send me back hahas. thanks so much man! hahahas... omg!!!!!and the night was quite cold man! hahahas.. poor zack that i put u alone and go home urself. sad sad.. sorry!

have some milk in the night.. and then go home bath and Zzzz.. get prepare for the SUNDAY SIA( singapore international airlines). super busy day!

SUNDAY!!!!

who are they?? they are jockeys for the krisflyer international cup! it was raining outside and and they came in to the room so happen to get some shots.. ho lala..
and was so so so so so so so busy that i really wan to go crazy... what the fish.. and so the president of singapore came, and donno which country their KING is here and also another country's PM is here also. hahas..

what a busy day for us.. IT represent singapore for the day! INTERNATIONAL! supporting rocket man! hahahas.. when R.fradd came in to the room, you know u know... i don wan tell u if u donno. hahahas.. LOL..

ROCKET MAN!!!!! get 2nd.. =((

got home abt 11 plus.. omg so tired man! haiis.... that's all for the photos of the day... i gonna make somemore nice pics tonight and then will uplaod soon tml. =)

2010-05-13T20:06:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : =)
i wan go sing i wan go sing.... yeahhH! sat going to sing K at chervon.. wo lalala.. k k k k k k k !!! wanna go sing for very long le actually.. and wont be singing if got other ppl ard. hahahas..

go JB go JB go JB... hahahas.. hahahas... hahahahs... lalalalalalallala... cant stop going out man! sucks!~

photos photos and photos.. again and again and again! with chn is a must.... i love chn. and chn loves me!

got a bum from santiago and bruise. another bum from ferdi and it bleeds in my mouth. Zzzz.. so mani bum... lalalalalas....

so mani chn this week. omg! and so ruan.. i was like.. arghhh! very sucks! a gal the annabelle ar.. realli cannot stand her.. donno y she cry so much and doesnt wan to come to sch.. walao! jus go lahhs... my class is baby class.. lalala... donno lahhs. shag...

another new gal is coming on monday. is like.. omg! got so mani chn le.. stil got new wan coming in, but lucky she is alright.. she doesnt cries and she likes me alot. hehehehes.. donno whats her name also... ask her she also never say.. Zzz...
Matilda (tilly)
SIA (singapore international airline) cup is coming this coming sunday.. and it's also a anniversary for me.. it's 3 years anni for my stupid kneecap... shall i get a cake for my kneecap? hahas.. SIAO! back to topic.. SIA.... is the most busy day and most fucking day and jus fuck it all ard..

gonna go there early and do all shits and get prepare.. lalalalalalas.... and the most is on sat.. guess who m i going out with??? IT'S WITH ZACK! hahhas.. friday see him, sat see him and also sun... LET ME TELL U THIS, I M GOING TO TAKE PHOTOS WITH HIM as becos i always miss the chance of taking photos with him. haiis.. so sad.!

omg! thinking of sat is kinda paisei wan lohhs.. it's gonna be our 2nd time to go out with him. hahahs... lalalalas.. what shall i wear what shall i wear????? so excited man! hahahahahahas..

last night last min went out ard 7 plus go JP shop with chengda. LOL... went out with a very very tall man! hah.. go shop ard in JP talks so much abt CPR, first aids thingy. hahas.. quite funni abt saving a life... LOL... cant wait for my 1staid card to arrive! lalalalalala.... got my photo wan ok! don play play ar...

today in sch.. lalalala.. still ok. today is thursday lehhs.. vincent shall come fetch me but he didnt.. lalala... forget it. shall be going for lunch with another fellow, but that fellow also cannot make it! lalalalas.. forget it, gang hao chengda sms me, mom no cook, so lunch with him bahs. hah.

wanna buy hair extension.. but.. that shop their quality is so bad.. so never buy.. SIAN!
wanna take LOADS photos.. with ZACK!!!!!!! cant stand zack's smile... smile smile!!

good night~ the rest of the photos will upload on sat.. hehehes

2010-05-11T19:24:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalala

spend money without seeing.. i download some apps on the ibaby and spend 4.99 for some apps. bleahhs! a bit waste money. hhaiiis.... but well.. used some photos in those apps.. uploading...IndiaJuliusBaxterMaliJACK JACK! this is nice.Santiago!Baxter & ferdiBaxter and BrunoADAMME!

bOO!!! tml really take photos le lahs.. realli no new photos for my lovely chn. Mmmm.... take more take more!!!!

and! i've passed my CPR and all the test le.. WOW! kinda feel so shiok man!!! wahahahahas.. Cool siA...

good night!

2010-05-09T16:38:00.009+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : lalalalalalalala

DIDNT I SAY I WANNA STAY AT HOME OVER THE WEEKENDS?
well.. out i went when i receive call from
ALVIN
" free go JB tonight?"
" what time? "
" ltr after i go funeral"
" call me when u finish and then see how 1st"

OUT i went at 6pm.. Zzz... reach JB at 7.15.
eat at the wang kok for dinner at citysquare
thanks him for the treating,
next 2 weeks will be my turn. Zzz

straight go to holiday plaza to get wallet
WALLET AGAIN!
i got so mani wallet at home now. Zzzz
after holiday plaza, we head to city square again

went to serect recipe to get some cakes.
Yummmy~~

head home... HOME SWEET HOME!

and then...
sunday morning.... head to JB again,
but go in from tuas, to jusco.
mmm.. a bit not feeling well today,
a bit spoil the mood of the day.
we walk ard and didnt realli get anythings.
we jus go there eat luch and we come back.
kinda bore right. but stil quite fun
haha..........

JUSCO! hahas. wanna go eat the chicken soup de...
but not feeling well cannot eat.
got to wait next 2 weeks go there then eat...
MMmmmmm... i realli miss the chicken soup alot alot...

CHICKEN SOUP!!!!!
jus wait for me there for another 2 more weeks ok..
i will be BACK!
got bus wait till..... NO BUS...

JB... HOME SWEET HOME!!!~

2010-05-08T12:04:00.005+08:00

wow... 1 week never blog... every morning as usual.. go to werk, and this week is a bit special. got home in the afternoon, slp.. NAP!! is so much impt for me this week. as night time 5something got to go yishun for my FIrst Aid course.

sian. i know no wan there and was really so far.. so 1st day i went and i told a taxi there and bomb me abt $19 something.. and of cos night time i also donno how to go home... so i took cab again, bomb me the same rate. well.. afternoon i go at peak hour cost me 19 something i stil can understand but y... i go home with OFF PEAK hours and it still cost me 19 something.. this was realli so angry and fuck!

so second day.... i took MRT and then change taxi.. the taxi driver was another fucker.. i say i wan go yishun ave 5 and he bring me to yishun ring road.. and i said again and again he ask me to get down and walk in, i say MR, i pay for taxi means u got to send to the place. if u wan me to get down here and walk in, i wont pay for the taxi fare becos u send me to the wrong place.

was realli so fucker nowadays taxi driver.. shall i report this to the taxi company??? is really so sucks... if u donno the place, DON take the passenger... waste so much of my money and somemore is peak hour... u go wrong place u got to pay for it.. NOT ME!

so everyday learn CPR and bandaging and chock. and blarr blarr blarr..
quite fun and interesting. but the wound injuries all like so yucks.. see le wan vomit and scare man!

last time i stll thinking of taking the nurse course. but after seeing this.. it shakes my thinking.. do i really wan that??? now my mind is 50/100%. half half...

friday is suppose to be my theroy test for the 1st aid.. but i got turfy lehhs.. then how.. i didnt go for test and i told the leaturer. i got werk and last day werk and contract and blarr blarr blarr.. which is realli cannot take off de.. and so the leaturer say ok.. then u come monday for theory and practical together.. i was like.. ahhhh .. LUCKY ME!

next saw a fren go malaysia beach taken so mani so mani nice views of pictures. and it really makes me going there for some holiday also.. taking air plane?? Mmm... errrr.. only we 2?? errr... gonna think. becos his nick name given by me is MR horny. LOL... but those view is like really so nice man!

he say wanna bring me there.. is kinda a bit worry lohhs.. but i still wan go.. ahhas.. cos i realli like going to malaysia.. plus he is going to bring me there for some nice view and holiday shoots.

nice beach view...

sat and sun will be at home.. i don wan go anywhere... becos i got something impt. hehehes...

i cant stop loving you.. JACK HOLLIS... u making me love u more and more day by day... =) and santiago gave me a knock on my face and is little blur black now.Zzzz.. its really hurts...

2010-05-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

sleepy... tml then tell you. hahahahahas

good nights...

2010-05-01T11:39:00.003+08:00

what the hell.. well.. India wee on me today as she doesnt cry as much as last few days. she sat on me and tells me abt lady gaga again, she tells me mani mani things.. where ma ma gone, who is this and that.. she was happily talking to me. Oh how lovely. as i show her to another gal annabelle. "heyy annabelle look.. INdia doesnt cry anymore. and mama always comes back. " INdia say that too.. look.. India is such a darling..

India is so lovely and sweet.. sometimes really cant stand her sweet man! and she was happily talking to me that i didnt realize that she wee on me. what the fuck.. i was wondering. eh how come my skirt is so wet, so i asked annabelle did u wee??? she say no. and so i went to INdia and youch her bottom, it wet.. she WEE ON ME!!! what the fish.. ahahahas...

well... this annabelle ar.. really cant stand her man.. wan to stay in my class, but still wan to bully ppl. i got to look after her strictly! really cant stand her man! she is like so sucks.. things cannot say de. mus cry de.. tell her nicely she don wan... what the fuck lahhs... still wan to bully my megan.. shit u man! hahahas...

another hugo. my old hugo.. he also another wan. a bit of things only cry... really don like him man... i play with another chn he also wan to join in, whenever he join i jus don feel like playing any more. hahahas.. selfish right? yeah i know. hahas. but if hugo don cry and tell me using his words ar.. i will also like him.. but he is like so annoying sometimes where he doesnt need to cry.

really very headache this few days... and my 1st aid course starting on monday.. is very very shag. do you know that? haiis... everyday got to go course. sleepy man!

and i very very long never take chn's photo liaos. hais.. is kinda a bit sian at werk already... my boss is sick... and she realli needs alot of rest. sometime i talk to her i still feel scare. hahas.Mmmm..

AND I WAN TO GO SHOPPING!!!!!! TO JB AND TO BUGIS STREET. HOHOHO... who wanna go JB. cos i wan go holiday plaza to get the bag and wallet and shoe.. LOL

yesterday in turf.. i tell u OMG man.. my SR went batam for his honeymoon. and then rani gets me a new staff.. what the fish man! so talkative and now i then know i cant stand MEN TALKATIVE! he alot of things to say and to ask.. i tell him 1 thing he will reply me 为什么！！！！！ all that he know is asking me WHY?????

in kindergarten already got JACK HOLLIS asking me WHY and everything. and now got 1 is age 21 and asking me so mani WHY? i was like.. yesterday the whole night he got asked me abt more then 100 WHY le bahhs. cant stand man! 为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么

TAK BOLEH TAHAN !

2010-04-29T20:45:00.004+08:00

跟自己不喜欢的人在一起是件很辛苦很辛苦的事情。超级辛苦。。

有一点不想看到你。又有一点想要你不要忘记我。咳。。。。。。

i donno what to say abt you man! shag...

omg! today my dear santi so cute when he saw me. cuddles and we are playing al while.. i say "i love u" to him and he reply NO!!! and i say " do u love me?" he say yeahhs~ omg! santi!!!!

wan to kiss him, cuddle him play with him, mus MAKE SURE his mucas mus clean. haha..
>
look at Mali.. so cute..

this is SAntiago.. hahas.. his eyes will like that is becos he fell and bum on the table. that's all bruise...

i mon, wed, and fri got baxter my bf and tues and thurs got santi my bf. hehehes... i miss you... omg! lovely.. tml morning wear my fav heels to werk. hehehe..

2010-04-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : sad

my ibaby!!!!!! walao. i know i can make it ra1n as i off my phone. and who knows the programe got problem and it cant ra1n.. so.. fuck and fuck i need to use fone. but what to do.. i itch hand go click restore and update for my itune iphone.

then everything upgrade lohhs.. cannot jailbreak liaos lohhs.. see lahh.. itch hand..then cannot on at all and everything.. sucks man! restore too slow.. i from 7puls start loading till midnight 2 plus.. damn sucks man! i cannot slp somemore. every 15mins got to click ok to restore. sucks man!

was like so tired and wanna Zzzz... and great headache.. sucks man! and finally can on le.. i was like.. lovely and so sweet suddenly... and finally can slp le. hahas..

well.. version upgrade. kinda bua song. sucks man! but thanks god that it still can werks. hahahas..

something funny.. well.. y do everything come so late.. i jus don wan to know things from you any more. don u think u need share those things to me last time? i donno.. if is last time i wish and i will reply asap, i will say alot.. but now. i donno what to say. jus having some headache.

i jus got a bad dream this afternoon. wad was it?! i dreamt i marry to a unknown guy, is a vetnamise. is anice guy.. rich guy.. but the wedding seems funny and also everything. LOL

but really scary.LOL some1 say i m special to him. LOL. and also remember a uncle always send me home after werk? he this 2 weeks neba send me home, haiis, i need waste bus fare. hahas.. no lahhs jus kidding.. hahas. he called me last few days, say eh tot i got course every tues and thurs.. and so he never come fetch me home. and he scare he cant fetch me home. hahahas. LOL..

i don wish to be ppl's 3rd party. LOL..

may and june's target is to go slimming.. hahas lol.. scare my july event costume cannot wear. LOL... lalalalalas.. cant wait for my july event man!!! omg!!!!!

2010-04-27T21:38:00.003+08:00

it sucks and really sucks..

pressed wrongly and download wrongly.. damn sucks. now my ibaby is doing some updates and i cant jailbreak it anymore and kinda sucks. it already takes abt 3 hours to do it already and then i need another 4 more hours to do it.. to finish the updates kinda feel so sucks now. sad... means i cant slp??

omg.. i realli need to slp man! but every15 mins need to click ok to let it run. kinda sleepy now sia.. sad.. and my passion ezlink card is here le. hahahas.. cool man! well.. also no mood lahhs.. ibaby like that.. sucks man!

can my frens don sing so well?? i cant stand it man.. they sing too well that i really falling in love in listening to them singing. hahahahahas.. next time go k call me ok. hahahas.. LOL...

they sing 你是我的眼 chorus part i tell u.. u can jus simply fall in love in this song. hahas.. crazy right.. now i everyday everything listening to it man! hahahas.. but they sing wan is more nicer de lahhs.. cos they sing it out loud and really super nice! hahahahahas... was shocked that they sing that part. hahas.. who knows xh's fren guan ting was here also. lol.. kinda mani years didnt contact and even forgot each other liaos.. hahahas.

haiis haiis....
does it looks sweet?? in real realli very nice lehhs. i mean the dress with the heels. hahahahas.. so lovely... love this so much... =)

2010-04-26T20:22:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

finally go shopping le.. got mani stuff sia.. and spend alot of money.. Mmmm.... expensive stuff.. haiis... went shopping with collen at bugis.. that's the place where i hate the most.. LOL. bo bian.. due to 1st shopping with her.. so gonna go lohhs. hahas

got home abt 10 plus.. KAO bugis is damn hard to wait for taxi de lahhs. cos walk for the whole day and got mani stuff.. kinda heavy... Zzzz... super duper tired maN!!!!!! cost me 33.90
cost me 9.90 rm ( from last week)
cost me $55 rm ( JB last week shopping)
2-$20
$10
my hair extension. don wanna tell u the price leiis. LOL
marry me... $23

jus cant stop loving in shopping. hahas =) cheers...

2010-04-25T11:33:00.005+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

friday and saturdays was big day in turfy.

1st was friday's Queen Elizabeth ll cup. was a very busy day for me man!.. but quite busy is busy not as busy as like SIA cup. Zzz well.. SIA cup is coming soon also. now gonna go JB to buy some shoe for my SIA, flat and nice, no HEELS! well.. well.. but i always go JB will never get what i wan and yet i get those unwanted wan. waste money right.. so next trip go there mus kinda save up and buy those that needed.. LOL
next is saturday, morning meet up cheng da for bfast and then pass him my lappy for formatting and change the window to window 7 instead of still using vista.. hahas.. nice using window 7 man! bleahhs!.

after that stupid ah boon wanna meet up for bfast but too late and so we gonna buy tao hua go turfy eat and so my fren send me and boon there.. so much appreciate. hahas..

and then after that turfy wasnt as busy as friday. it was the Lion City cup, too bad the seni0r manager was there and champagne room was full of ppl. and so cannot take the photo of the cup. sian tiaO man! it's ok... and so saturday only 10 races. so little and finish werk at 6.30. lalalalala...

go up take pay. lalala.. something happen badly. quarrels in the office and blarr blarr blarr... delay our time.. sucks man! and then after think next week then take le lahhs. so mafan.. and then so we went off.

meet up cheng da again. so we went for dinner and so i went for funeral. and then chervon KTV at 11pm.. again.... hahahas.. he need to pass me my lappy thats y meet again. LOL... don anyhow think sia. LOL..

HEYYS~ do you remember my pink mp3 that i have losted. it's not back again and (he) went all over the sing to get for me a mp3 same model. was so much gan dong man. but boon keep on syaing don always gett cheated by boys ok... hahahas.. ehhh.. so i donno whether to believe anot. hahas.. if don believe leiis, is very rude to the person who get me this. if i believe leiis, i scare is fake, so is kinda ruan... hahahas..
think my blog is going to die man.. lesser time coming up here to blog siahh... what happen man! shag...

and ltr going shopping with collen. hahahas.. cool man! no money still can go shopping.. well.... cant it be window shopping mahs? bleahhs~ i jus don wanna stay at home during weekends. but somehow some weekends i jus wanna stay at home but... gonna do those entertainment.

i know how to save picture from iphone in this way le.. hahahas.. thanks to SR... bleahhs~! so much more easier for me. hehehes

any1 can finish this for me? LOL

see doctor again on thursday. damn sucks man! month end soon..... yeahhh! i don miss you..

eh ask every1 something.. can any1 tells me why do HUMANS need to wee ar?? my dear dear jack hollis was asking me why do we need to wee when i get him to the toilet to wee.. he was really so cute when asking this stupid question. hahahas.. i didnt know how to ans.. but to ask him u jus need to release urself. hahahas. LOL.. crazy right... isnt he adorable. hahahaha...

2010-04-19T20:10:00.008+08:00

wa.. since last week my last post..

well.. 1st of all thanks everyone for ur wishes. and the gifts..
i m offically 21.. haiis..
i don wish to grow up man. sian..

from UEK kangaroos girls

from kimliang
he went arcade doggy catcher and get them for me
so gan tong man!!!
this is from myself... LOL

went to meet zhaowen on 15 april.
and then wash car and blarr blarr blarr
and then kim liang pass me the present.
i damn gan tong man!

his aircon spoil. hahas.. donno how to wash any how wash. Zzzz..
we went boonlay carpark to wash. free tap water. hehehes.

16 april.. friday! steven and ms mary's birthday.
hahas.. happy bday!.
and then race day...
shu rong getting sick le.... omg!haiis... it's ok.. hahahas..

17 april
go jps with min, alvin, jiajie and shurong.
eh no jam leiis. hahas.. cool man!

is my focus good?

act cute

pizza for dinner.

we went sentosa, city square, and holiday plaza..
brough alot of things man!.. so tired.. hahahahas..
wanna go again sia. cos i need go holiday plaza buy some stuff..
haiis... who can send me there again????!!!!! hahahas

we went to massage. hahas.. da tong da tong. LOL
actually the whole journey is like so (R)ated man
hahas.. was toking some funni stuff
and was laughing all the way.
very very dirty. hahahas.
massage till so song maN!!!
cabby here and there.. hahaas..
so (R)ated. hahahahahahahahahahahas. cute man!

sunday turfy.. i drop my money.. 40 over dollars..
very very very very shag
it's my 2nd time lose thing..
1st is my fav mp3
and then now is money..
a very bad year for me.. oh pls...
pls...

i don wanna lose anu thing again... haiis..

2010-04-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

happy bday my self. LOL

i cant help falling in u again and again.. you gave me a ring, a red ring and u wearing the same color too, but you gave the other teachers the ring is different color.. so i m married to jack. i was so happy man. and then u know what.. i was holding jack's hand and wanna bring him home, we walked a few step, and jack ask me " where we going?" i was like.. hUH?? u gave a ring and ask me where we going.. walaO!!!!!

the greatest joke.. how lovely jack is.. omg!

2010-04-13T14:14:00.005+08:00

Jack gives me a big LOVE BITE yesterday. pain de lohhs and his saliver is like drool on me on my hand so dirty.. but jack is realli so cute..

i really love jack alot alot.. remember i went for the interview on friday?? monday morning i was thinking.. i sure will get the job de. so i realli cherish the time spend with Jack. i love him i miss him.. he is mine!!!! lovely jack.. my mind was only jack.. m i m thinking.. y m i in the kindergarten?? y did i wan to go spa werk? y? i wan go there werk is becos.. i wan learn and catch up new things before i old. i don wan ppl say me useless again.. i wan to go there werk... and on monday after jack left, i know i still love kindergarten and i didnt wan to leave the sch. but well.. i got home JM call me. say i got the job le!. HORRAY!!!!

and then my thiking was.. i got the new job new palce new oppounity. i shall go ahead.! no more thinking of Jack again... kindergarten i gained 2 years experience.. what more i wan? i have been there so long.. and that's what i always wan.. but i think is enough le.. enough of sch life.. go for the new job...

so this morning.. i think alot.. i think of what to tell my principal.. and was thinking after werk, sit down with her and tell her.. and morning she gave me even bigger shock.. she enrolling me the course. Zzzz.. go lohhs.. walaO!

the job to cancel.. i think alot alot.. how much i hate man.. i wanna accept the job and now got good job offer.. y not.. y not.... Zzzz...

haiis.. headache man!... JUST rejected a job, another job offer call up. my cousin's sister's cousin.. say she need hire teachers... Zzzzz... i wanna accept.. but walao!.. walao!!!! y all job offer comes in at this time??? y is it so?? damn sucks man! damn headache...

well... yesterday after werk went to IKEA with cheng da.. Zzzz.. know him so long,( know as in notice only.. donno wach other) this is the 1st time that we came out together. and also i been so logn didnt go out with guys and he gonna pay for everything. hahahahas... LOL. but anyways thanks.. u spent more then 100. Zzzz...

WALAO! india stil not back yet. ferdi still loves me. haiis..... i was asking some chn out tonight.. i asked Mali, my fav boy also. "are you free tonight?" he say NO!
i ask lukas, he say NO also.. hahahas. so cute.. i was being rejected. Zzzzz..hahas.. theysay.. i was like. oh sucks man! hahas...

someone ask me out.. shall i go??? and i was so happy last night.. but too tired.. and so i soon fall asleep. LOL.. today not as happy as last night. LOL... too much things bordering me. i saw something today.. and u know what.. i know i doesnt love u anymore. you know you know.. hahahahahahahas.... goosh! youuuu whoooo~~~~
pig leg again.. haiis... finally got a small brace to wear it.. cheerrs..

2010-04-11T17:15:00.005+08:00

I am happy and I am not.
meet up at vivocity for dinner.
steamboat restuarant
and not bad. can go there again next time.
cheers.

chat chit and they got me a cake.
ahhhh~ chocolate cake.. my FAVOURITE!
happy that u guys wanna celebrate.
anyway thanks so much to you guys.

after that was finding a place to drink n sing
chervon earliest is 12am. so time is still early.
head to jurong lake for chit chat instead
chat and chat till 2am. head home

chats abt gf/bf, chats abt (R)ated topic
chats all sorts of topic.
every1 happy chatting..
shall realli find a day
chat till morning,
everyone breakfast together
and then head home. =)
great time spend. =))

alvin got me a cake too
ahhh~ chocolate cake too~~ LOVELY
on friday after my turfy.
chit chat with him n shu rong in the night
till 12plus nearly 1 then go home Zzzz..
thanks... left ear no sound. feeling sucks now.
LOUSY doctor say takes 2-3 days to recover.
sucks man... only right ear is listening to the things.
left ear's close shop now..
sucks...

more fotos. tml then upload.
it's time for me to go BED!
HUH??? WHAT?? WHAT did u say??
OMG!!!!
my bed is calling me to go bed.
hahas. see ya..

2010-04-08T21:44:00.003+08:00

shall i delete the 3 photos album of the name... 8289?? the 1st day of the date till the last day of the date. although not much photos but actually quite mani. LOL. i m clearly my photo album recently.. my chn wan, my frens and and most of it are deleting...

no point keeping it and not in use.. gonna delete it and put in new wan.... =))

erm.. ermm erm...today kinda not feeling very well.. keep on toileting.. and in and out. hahas. cannot tahan.. and so i realli wan go off early.. and then the uncle call me again and say wan send me home.. i not feeling well and wanna take cab de.. since he is here le so let him drive lohs, so i can save some money again.. yippp...

havin some problems now. damn sian... anyway... JACK doesnt wan kangaroos teachers any more.. sob sob.. let's cry together.. hahahhas..

my ferdi is so sweet today and he is so hensum without combing his hair. hahahahas... lovely boy... can u be my bf??

i miss my heels today... LOL

2010-04-07T19:48:00.002+08:00

ermm.. walao.. today mmm....i sprain my leg. what the fish... i cant even bend. what the........ kinda moody..

this afternoon went 500 plus there to go bank and saw.... Jitjin. ahahas.. so funni.. i buy kfc for lunch and i heard some1 call me.. oh jit jin and his sister and i forgot he got sister lohhs.. LOL. i tot is his gf. Zzzz... wondering y he infront of gf call me. hahas.. yuan lai is his sister. LOL....

Mmm.. chat quite alot and his sister chao funni de lahhs.. so obvious.. hahahas.. wanna take my number say her customer wan, and then say she in a rush and throw me there to acc his bro... Zzzz... siao man! hahahahas... Zzz.. then chat a lot lahhs.. and then.. MMmmm...

i don understand y u guys like to ask go sing K... walao! i sing k damn not nice wan lohhs.. i only know how to sing chn songs. hahahas...

leggy pain now. damn sucks.. friday stil got to werk.. but... mmm.. kinda miss busying msn-ing. hahas... and now msn-ing some ppl, entertainment. Zzzz.. 3 of them and 2 are.. Mmmmmm....... lalalalalalaallalalas....

Mm.. after watching my fav show.. i found out.. i not love u. i jus love the wan that i missed, i use to have, u use to nice to me. i not love u. i jus found out. oo... and i saw another fren today also.. i also found out yahh.. is miss but not the wan that i really wan... cleared mind now! =)

lalalalalalala.. good night sweet dreams and i having such a good mood today. cheers...

2010-04-06T14:39:00.004+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY :busy

today we shall go to the farmart. was abt to set off.. who knows my kangaroos babies.. came together today.. so my class have got 15 chn and only 2 teachers.. so i stayed back and helped.

lucky i didnt go becos i can stay with my bf.. baxter. and the weather is so HOT. i m jus lucky... shall be having only 5-7 chn in class and according to the list only 4 came with extra of 11 chn whose name is not there.. and they jus came and pay the money and we didnt even prepare enough for the chn. Zzzz....

today today and today..... Mmmmmmm... lalalalalalalalalalalalalalas... i love my heels so much.... mom scold me crazy and she try to put it and and she almost fall.. Zzzz...

wa.. kinda stupid to send the msg out and then thanks for REMINDING me abt the suffers and consequences... hah.. kinda stupid to think of those again and again.... stupid right? y ppl mus always like that.. haiis.. HUMANS BEINGS, to me i jus feel so suck to be a human..

jus have a good nap.. also cannot... sucks... still feeling sleepy now but jus headache... ..... so ugly.. LOLwe borrowed the rooster from our neighbour.. hahahas.. a BIG fat rooster... so noisy... POP. POP.POP......

my leggy pain liaoz.. i think is that day i knock on the door accidently.. sucks man........ i don wish to spend another 40 bucks on the doctor again... small small matter.... it will never get well. Zzzzz

word for the day... SHAGGGG~

a uncle was looking for me up recently.. calling me morning, noon and night.. everyday must call me.. Zzz... shall i start to get worry?? Mmm... he call me lastfewdays regarding a dream.. he dreamt of me. he said " i dreamt of you agree to be my gf and walk hold hands and we walk along and i saw my wife was jus right in front of us and i got shock and so awake.." huh???

omg! wad a dream.. after i got to know this wan.. i start to get worry... realli... i felt very very very scare now.. and even omg.. i realli realli very scare.

and when i feel scare, i always think of (him) holding my hand.. the reason y i send him the msg is becos i always had a image in my mind which i wanna wash it away is damn hard.. the image is, i stay over at night at ur hse, and i always feel scare, u will hold my hand. that's y i sent u the msg. and who knows i got the reply that i know and i got the reply with something even sucks....

got to know a fren he is a taiwanese and he say he wanna bring me go taiwan play a few days.. Cool leiis. hahas.. how i wish to go there and doesnt come back. Mmmm... i wan to go during JUNE! anyway i m jus free now.. hahahahas... free to go anywhere, anytime, anything i like...

i like a guy name Hong sheng, realli shuai man, and u looks like a babe to me too... =P

2010-04-05T21:44:00.003+08:00

WALAO~

jus suddenly feel so sucks and YUCKS~ y wont i have do that... jus y??? i m crazy.. yes i m... i m stupid, and crazy and i jus suddenly feel so yucks... wadever wadever wadever.....................................

i HATE I HATE AND I REALLI HATE!!!!!!!!! sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks.. you are a fucker and a sucker and fucking nabeii... you are SHITS of everythings.. ya ya ya .. u are a CA.i know u are a CA. damn regretting now man! how would i have met this kind of ppl in the world in my life.. sucks....... u are 2 head snakes.. and u have mroe then 2 heads man!

my mood now is jus totally spoil by you... sucks sucks sucks... i really never expect that you are this kind of person lohhs... OMG! SUCKS ! idiot + fucker + sucker + nabeii.........

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2010-04-05T16:08:00.009+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

yesterday went to chinatown 1st and then head to orchard with UEK gals.. foto have to wait rachel to send me.. =)

we went kino to see some yan ya lun 1st and then head to eat and so to cinema. watched "how to train your dragon" 3D, but the 3D doesnt realli effect much.. feel too normal... but is quite nice.. the boy, hicup, the way he talks like angus. and the dragons are actually jus like 1 of my kid, Ollie watson. sayang him and he will be nice to you. =))

after that we head to shop ard at ion.. and i got myself a shoe.... a high heel shoeeee.... hahahas.. damn nice man.. i love it so much... jus make it my bday present for myself this year. LOL nice??? nice?? nice??? love it so much man.. guess. how high is this heel??? is 11 cm lohs.. cool right... omg! so love it man.. nv wear so high for so long le.. i got 1 heel but thrown away le.. cos not very nice liaoz... hahahahahahas...

hangout till 10plus.. getting too tired man every1.. hahas.. so off we went.. cab home.. i really no money again le.. my pay haben out.. haiis... omG! today my boss forgot to give us pay. shit man!.. i shouldnt have left so early.. .chEY!!!!!

i sent a stupid msg out.. is really kinda stupid.... shall i send or not... haiis... arghh~ but actually also nth much lahhs.. hahahahahahahahahahas... is jus a .... ....

headache man! sleepy.. sleppy... sleepy...i miss my bf... Baxter Oliver..... lovely boy...

tml field trip... Zzzzzzz....

left hand??? Mmmm... i was so shock when i was napping on the table jus now for 15 mins.. out of sudden.. my hand was shaking very badly and even pushed the things on my table to the floor.. omg!.. cool man! very long didnt shake le.. recently is like.. the pills from the doctor is sucks.. all with side effect.... ganna sHIT!!!

is so sucks man to send out the msg to him... very fuck.. i know i shouldnt... jus DON BE STUPID!. arghhH~ i have my reason to send. and i know what the reply gonna be.. but.. jus that .. IT'S TOTALLY SUCKS!~

2010-04-03T22:33:00.003+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

walao! last night zhao wen call me up and say today cannot go in JB. what the... but ok lahhs. lucky never go in lahhs.. cos raining mahhs.. hahahas..

turf.. morning i wake up at 6am.. nth to do... online and do some shits... well well well... now feeling sleepy le. Zzzz.....

in turf.. mani things happen.. i pulled sr's vest and it's torn.. gonna sew for him.. Zzz.. we was like funni like crazy in press box.. i guess we realli too much le.. becos our voice is like too loud man...
hahahs.. funni right...

and then we play with sugar... coffe mate and even water splashing.. LOL... i got wet on my feet.. hahahas... jus a happy playing.... and yesterday realli having a good mood.. so funni...

since night time no go JB so ah boon called me and say go sakura buffet.. mm.. he is going to brunei for his army.. so go eat eat lohhs.. then from science centre walk home and we chatted alot.. such a nice fren where to find leiis. hahas.. i sick will come down and acc me go see doc with a bit of complainting... hahahahaahs.. if ur fren get sick , will u acc him or her to see doc and she/he is jus ur fren?? guess mani ppl wont bahhs.. for me.. Mmmm.. unless the wan i like. hahahas.. if not i m not going to acc u. LOL.. other then ah boon. cos he acc me once and so i got to return him also. =) lalalalalallalala

was telling boon abt the ex bf and somehow finalize it.LOL....... lalalalalalalas.... btw my mom knows, and she jus kept quiet.... lalalalalalalala....
sian man!

tml whole day out! hopes it doesnt rain.....

2010-04-02T20:43:00.003+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : sucks....

this morning wake up at 6.. diaO.. good friday stil got to wake up so early.. Zzz.. have to go praying. lol... pray till 10plus and so go turfy.. alot alot of things to do man!! but sr to come arly a bit, he come late and so much things to do.. well nvm then...

today werk super sian but damn lots of stupid jokes with sr. lol... mani thigns happen and today... NO PAY! walao!! but tml take together.. lols... 1 thing damn funni.. i asked wee han today y he need such a big camera? and so he showed me.. i finally know why.. and then sudden he say.. eh see i nv move, and the hore is moving.. so i was like ehh.. how come ar.. we didnt even move the camera lehs, then he said "walao! is the TV lahhs" i was like walaO!! so stupid lahhs.. hahaas.. lots of laughter at press today.. hahahas.. especially this wan.. damn stupid and paisei lahhs..this is the wan... any1 from STC.. u will know who big the thing is.. hahahas

jus asked something simple from u and jus wanna u help me.. i m kinda miss the tau suan ice cream... and so wanna ask some frens go there eat. cant help me mahhs?? ask me check online, i checked, but i donno the restuarant name.. thats y ask u help me. if i know i still need ask u mahs? i know that we already break. i know shouldnt have trouble u so much.. but is jus that someth=ime need ur help mahs.. cannot mahhs??? arghhh!!!!!!!!! was like so fed up.. nvm nvm.. jus forget it.. i know i shouldnt sms u.. arghh! STOP! control control. what the...............
any way thanks for replying also..

walao!! busy busy busy.. tml finish werk.. so ton till midnight at JB.. hahahas. cool man.. kinda miss the days that night time hanging outside. last time was with the love wan. and now with the frens..... with zw,ek and min.... lol..... JB... i m coming! wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahas....

and then my sunday ar... i can tell u ar.. is like damn damn super busy de lohhss... hahahas.. orchard orchard and orchard.. dating with the gals in UEK.. heheheh.. we are going to be some SCANDALS!!!!!!

oh yeah in turf today... my stupid old old sick came.. i was so shock... izzit i laugh too much that cause the prob here??? you know what.. it didnt happen last year.. once once i remember... last year wholeday only happen once. and now again.. i tot he would never come back again.. but it does.. for abt 1 hr plus.. i was like... omg!! shall i go for a scan?? i really donno what is that man.. i use to have happen this previously with like 1 year more then 10 times.. but last year was 1 time.. this year it came again. omg!!!!!! i realli don wish to spend money on doctors man! what the SHIT!!!!!!!

and now.. the stupid sick i donno is what lahhs.. is i have to hold my heart then i can breath.. u believe??i stil can breath without holding my heart, but it hurts and seems something got stuck.. i have to press on my heart, to breath harder... i really hate this.. it takes abt 1min to settle the breathing.. wat the shit lahhs.. and when i get to laugh, it seems stucked again.. and i have to press it and laugh and talk and breath.. what is this stupid sick abt??? kinda hate man!

sleepy head... tml gonna WHOLE day and NIGHT OUT! so slp early and i love u and i miss u.. and i really do. =))

2010-04-02T07:13:00.002+08:00

i regreted that i didnt make the album with him when he asked to do so previously.. haiis.. i regretted and haiis.... arghhhh~

and was sending out the april fool day message. And I got a very stupid reply. It goes...
"Lame..K lorx..We end here..Or you wan send you to jb den we end there? Haha"

was like hahahahaha diaO. Say like that. Hahahahahahahahabahahaha

2010-03-31T17:12:00.004+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

this morning i woke up, acutally i would i woke up server times in the middle of the night, i keep on thinking of him and i dreamt of another guy. Zzzz... i dreamt of WH gor gor.. Mm.. i dreamt of we get to go on a date. in the date.. we are very happily and he is so man man!!!! i was like omg!! realli cant stand guys who are so man. lol... i ever touches his big muscles on his arm.. i ever even lie on his shoulder and omg!!! full of muscles man! cant stand!!! he is tanned and omg!!!!...

in the dream was evening time. we wannted to go somewhere and then we got to take a taxi.. Mmm.. for more details shall not share here... well well well.. i know it was really a great dream.. hahahas... this is then call the real man ok!!!!! hahahahs... nice nice nice... =)

ermm.. jack in sch today was really so adorable.. he wanna come to my hse.. and i taken some videos of him and gonna upload ltr.. gonna share the video tml. =) FerdinandoBaxter, my poker face.

the rest of the photos will uplaod tml.. see ya..

been eating like mad recently.. i donno i m happy or i m sad.. i guess mus be happy... morning have breakfast either wanton mee or nasi lemak at 8am. and then 10 am had some snack with the chn.. and then 1pm will have some lunch like chicken rice or fish n chips. and then after had my lunch, immediatly had some snacks again.. Milo and yakult again.. and so i went for nap abt 3pm... and then woke up at 7.30pm go for another bath and dinner again.. dinner finish another snack again, yakult again.. and soon go to bed again...

wake up another morning, same rountine again.. and... everyday continue like this, i have gain 3 kg. WOW! wad a.... .... shall i go for run everynight with him?? but i m damn damn lazy nowadays... shit.....i gain and i gain and i gain and i doesnt wan to stop. becos now single mahhs. hahas... so can eat and eat and eat.. lol...

my headache ar.. i still having.. but.. not as much as previously.. but i guess soon my headache coming back becos sat night no need slp and sun still got a whole day event.. sun go chinatown and go parkway and go bugis.. running here and there. so BUSY!

and i guess no 11pm will never get home on sunday.. walaO!!!!! what the shit man.. Mmmm.. can i slp more??? and my april 10 and 11 on sat and sun is BOOKED! waKaO! will die maN! anyway.. ALMOST!!! i almost sent out the message on Facebook... ALMOST.. but lucky.. i didnt.. i didnt i didnt... oh goshh! Mmm.. big eye small eye!!!

a fren called me jus now at 948pm. so shock to receive his cal and my heart goes pump up and down.. and thru out the conversation are all jokes.. =) something that makes me sweet.

2010-03-30T13:42:00.004+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good

well well.. today werk.. haiyo.. got 11 chn. so mani.. and yesterday jus only 2 and there are more chn coming back.. Mmmm... Mali....REAL rabbit to show the chn.. it's my 1st time to sayang an animal.. LOL....stil got to see my jack for the holiday programme.the hensum boy's birthday today! Bruno.... you are 3!!!Adam.... BjoenarMireyaAnouk

well well well.. been chatting with jeff recently and i met another so qiao thingy. that sat night K session. he said, he was driving along the path way and he happen to saw a gal, and he say Mmm maybe he got to see the gal at the KTV. O.o and so he say he called XH that he wanna go the k session again..and see will he get to meet the gal. alright alright.. hahas.. and who knows it was me. diaO! so qiao. ohh. i was the gal who was crossing the road. and he was driving along. and who knows i went to their room for the k session. and even who knows we got to study in the same Sec and Ite sch.. diao! don you think things are too coincident? omg!

well.. that's the story goes by.. Mmm... i met alot of past things recently.. everything seems too good to me.. what happen??? jus what happen??? start to get worry... i FAN TAI SHUI this year.. things should be go the other way. BAD! but it seems too good to me recently.. and you know what.. maybe there are even more worst things coming out and i wouldnt know. getting so worry now..

been thinking alot recently too.. did i ever regret last year relationship?? well.. i m still thinking.. kinda regret and somehow not.. who i met, what i do.. what happen actually for all.. actually.. i knows all well.. i m happy and i m sad.. and from there, i got to forgot something.. i forgot things cant be always good, there are some bads also.. and i jus forgot abt this.. i jus wan it all good and everything and for all.. i m too much and too selfish.. but well.. i jus felt that i m a fool sometime and i jus felt that kinda regret.. but think for the good. i m appreciate for it.. Mmmm..

my sick till now ar.. all the pills i have finish le and my sick still doesnt go away.. what the hell.. the doctor is like.. no good no good. next time don go there le.. Zzz...

to the both men... eh walao! ppl now age 27 le and be a daddy le.. and both are you are still so hong outside and doesnt wan to settle down? do u think u still young? do you think ppl stil wan you??? what do you think?? no.1 u are getting fatter! and you are my brother.. pls lahhs.. get marry soon le.. really cannot tahan man!.. hahahahas.... no.2 pls lahhs.. u are getting ugly man! hahahas.. get marry soon and settle down.. don hong le.. Zzzzz....

cant stand some old guys nowadays.. faster get marry and settle down and don pollut the world with some dirty stuff.. lol... i wan to settle down liaoz. lol... becos.. to start a family ar. is really something sweet.. jus don think of future too much.. realli... believe me.. there is some thing that is good for marriage also.. jus something. =))

well... i realli cant stand ZY man.. y don wan call them to meet them to plan and blarr blarr blarr.. and so we quarrel in MSN And also on the same time we settle. hahahas.. say out the reason.. and things will be fine.. and from that conversation. i then realise.. i m too harsh during Jan to say those words to u(some1 but not ZY) regret for saying harsh things...

another wan also. cant stand her man! she jus thinking that the whole world is hers. and then every1 mus like go with her follow her, she has to scarfise somethings.. i jus start to don like her also... haiis.. y all my fren are like this.. SHITS man!!!!!

eh you.. realli need that so much mahhs? omg! i got a finalize... R E G R E T!

T H I S I S R E A L L Y S U C K !! ! ! ! ! !

2010-03-28T21:02:00.007+08:00

yesterday YMCA event..
been 2 years didnt go for the event.
last years was busy dating and so didnt really contact all my frens...
cool man.. Yprom.. yahoOO~
i remember i the wan i went was during 2008..
at the botanic garden.
another yprom will be at june...
pictures shall do the talking.

this is alex. the boy whom is playful
at the YMCA with his bro shawn
he doesnt wan to take photos
gonna wait JOYCE to send me
hahahas.. cheers
stil got more!!! with JOYCE!! hahahas

after the event Mmm.. K session with xin hao and say he gonna intro 2 frens to me.Mmmm.. 2 are guys and me and xinhao. walao i 1 gal niahh... we went chervon for k.. hahas.. place is nice and not bad.. over there who knows that he intro me ppl with i know de. Zzz... 1 is chengda from my sec sch de. hahas. another wan is same pri sch but he is 2 years old then me.. bleahhs.. so qiao man.. saw ppl i know again.. Zzzz..

well well.. they all sing is like so nice wan lahhs.. not like what we all always go sing k... they are PRO! they take up compeition... hahahahas.. so pro that i don even dare to sing de lahhs. walao! hahahahas..

and so head home ard nearly 1am cos i was like so tired man.. hahas. got home and ding ding dong dong and ard 2am then slp. Zzzzzzzz.... too bad xin hao not in the photo. hahahas..

today morning werk turf.. take cab.. omg! i always think everytime take cab will i get to meet the same cabbie again? and well.. i met the same cabbie.. he said are you going turf club? i was like.. huh.. how do u know that? he say he take me before. so.. errrr... so qiao!

turf.. Mmm.. not much. but i can say is shurong spoilt liaoz. he say.. "hello, come to my hse tonight?" hahahas..so funny and we sms non stop.. jus to spam each others whatsapp in iphone. lol... crazy man.. hahahas..

2010-03-27T00:51:00.004+08:00

MOOD OF THE DAY : good
oh dear.. what does that mean?? Mmmm... actually i totally forgotten abt the thing that i asked u jus now. is jus that my fren got the same thing as u so as i recall to ask u how izzit... Mmm...

anyway m i stupid?? i now those are realli traps and lies and i jus wanna go into it. m i realli stupid?? 1st was the WH. stupid LX3 thingy.. i know is all lies and i fell into it... and now u having ur shit face when u see me..

next wan.. the biker. i know what his mind is thinking.. but i jus still taking his bike home.. he is also a kind of that type wan.. and so... i jus wan things convience. so.. stil take his bike home. hahahas...

next wan is which is jus mention with a fren on fb.. but my head now is very pain. Zzzz... did i make a right choice??? i know is a right choice to accept the offer of the job.. but another offer is like... errr.... what ever...

i will always never do the right thing in ppl's eye... i need to get use to this kind of stupid eye-ing from ppl...

omg! that jockey ar.. diaO! he is my big bro's fren.. we same sir name, same pri. and he happen to know my bro and my bro say he stil can regonise u. diao diao diao diao diao! things are jus too coincident man! tai qiao le... we got so much things similar and related.. diaO! i mean as in things cannot be so qiao wan right... and even my bro's best fren name u also remember. and that was like more then 20 years man... Zzzzz.. funni funni funni...

so qiao... hahahas.. and even know my bro werk in which company de lahs.. diaO! omg!!!!!! damn cool man... anyway JPS ROCK!

sat night gonna go singing k at 10pm with my another JPS fren. see all JPS came together.. diao diao diao diao diao! yeahhH! k seesion. =)stellamali

it's mid night now! 1.05am.. good night..